xanax w/d and then some

[hereigoagainwhy]

Please help me.  5 years ago I became very ill...after going on many antinflammatories, then ultram, then oxycodone, then long acting morphine, then xanax....finally last November the culprit was found and I had a large mass growning around my heart.  It was removed successfully last Feb. 08.  I successfully detoxed myself off all the meds!  It took many months but then I started getting sick again and was Dx with "Dresslers Syndrome" and autoimmune response to the invasive surgery.  I realized this time that all the meds were changing the way I behave, was becoming emotional and grumpy so I decided to w/d again...but this time something changed in me,  I started hallucinating and envisioning horrible things and thought about death a LOT.  So I checked myself into a 3 day detox, it was horrible, I was terribly sick but managed to survive it, after I got out I did nothing but cry for three weeks!  I felt quilty, miserable, shaking constantly, like energy inside that can't come out, no sleep...back to the hospital I went with a horrible stomach virus and they noticed my mood, lo and behold was informed I suffer from "post w/d syndrome" so they put me back on it, 1/3 what I was on before, said I went off too much too fast and my brain is too attached chemically esp. to the Xanax....HOW do I stop now?  They are setting me up with a psychiatrist to help me, what should I expect from this person and what should I request to help me....still crying all the time, feel worthless, my children think I've lost it!  I thank God for my wonderful supportive husband, yet feel abandoned by God.

[snowflake620]

you go and squeak as long and as loud as you want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have beensqueaking for a while now and today i am starting to roar so go for it and good luck with the dr.
     snowflake

[hereigoagainwhy]

Thank you all so much for the advice, help, and support.  I really need and appreciate all your wisdom.  I see my new doc on Thursday.  He used to be an anesthesiologist and is now a psychologist.  Will see what he suggests to battle my addiction issues and obviously underlying depression.  I am trying to roar but today am happy just to squeak!

[morganave]

Do not blame yourself.  God is with you, if you feel he is not, talk to a pastor.
I am not a Dr. But I would diagnois you as having some depression.  The depression was covered by the meds you were taking.  They were keeping out of the toliet.  The shrink will help you to uncover if you do have depression and will give you the  right  meds  to  combat those feelings.  Tell the shrink about your xanax problems, he can help you to get off of those as well.  DO not give up!!  You are already strong, you have children, you are a mom and that alone makes you strong.  You are Women hear you roar.  Lean on your husband!!!  He will hold you up when you can not stand on your own.
With the help of the Lord,  you will make it through.

[lmatthews75]

I took Xanax for 3 years somedays 4-6 mgs per day.  I have to say the W/D sucked I did spend 22 days in rehab the safe palce to be.  BENZO should not be stopped usless you consult a doc...They can be very dangerous.  I also have to say a BENZO is a BENZO if you want ot stop taking them dont replace them with a different name Xanax, klon, valium its all the same......  when you went to the detox center did they detox you with Ativan?  I had this very same issue allot of places want to use a Benzo to w/d from a benzo it makes no sence.  I went thru that 3 times couldnt figure out why I still felt like I was going to die.  The final detox was longer term W/D's yes but with Phenabarb (spelling) and watched very close.  You have to re learn how to deal with stress and fears there are many many ways Yoga, MMRD, deep breathing ect.  It can be stopped do you have blood pressure issues or any medical needs?  

[snowflake620]

Good to heaar from you this morning you sound a little better,as for the island I am here to tell you that you will get off,please try the amino acid protocol it is a godsend,really.Let us know how the DR.'s appointment goes! Have a great day,
                                                                             snowflake

[hereigoagainwhy]

Hi, thank you so much for all the help and advice.  I definitely will NOT be w/d too quickly again from the Xanax, after being on it for 5 years, up to 6 mgs a day, I guess it just took control.  I wish someone would have told me how I would be held captive by this, I NEVER would have touched it!  Thought my drs were helping me, NOT!   I am a type A personality and this loss of control is thoroughly depressing me, I am also on Cymbalta, but it is not touching this recent episode of Xanax w/d depression, it is as though the world has fallen apart and I am standing on an island somewhere screaming and no one can hear me!  I should hear sometime today about this new dr I am to see who is to help me get off this stuff safely, Lord I hope he knows what he is doing, I don't think my body or brain can handle much more chaos.  Thanks again, I really appreciate the support more than any of you could possibly know

[worried878]

it could be the benzos as they need to bestopped slowly..ur doctor can help u with that..i hope he has some knowlegde about addiction..the narcotics,,if it were me i would leave them be...buried somewhere..but we are all different

the narcs caused alot of depression and fatgue for me for a few months while my brain healed..gotta give it that time and perhaps the docotr can help u...u may have some underlying depression problems that need to the address....have u read the thomas recip?  the aminos there can help ur brain heal,,,exercise helped my depression and fatgue immensly

nite  keep posting

[christos24]

very slowly taper your dose of xanax down till theres nothing left, you cant go cold turkey on potent benzos, you could also be switched to a longer lasting benzo like valium and clonazepam to taper off of...that the only proven way

[snowflake620]

First let me tell you GOD has not abandoned you he is with you please believe that,second xanax is a very dangerous drug to w/d from without a doctor to help as for the psychiatrist i don't really know i have never seen one (although many say I should  LOL) i myself am gooing through w/d from xanax never knew i was even addicted until i found this forum i only took 0.6 mil 1x a night for about 6 months and decided to stop because it quit working well let me tell you that was the wrong thing to do it has been a little over a month and i am still having problems,anxiety,feeling worthless,crying, heart palpitations no sleep and the listt goes on,the only thing i have found that really helps besides this forum is l-theanine and 5htp both are amino acids and all natural so no side effects and no w/d when you want to stop,please try them i take the l-theanine twice a day to calm me down and it really does work the 5htp i take 3x a day for depression,please try it and keep that appointment and it keep posting many people here have been where you are and can help.
                                                                              snowflake