This is the first time you have written to me in the Expert Forum, so I will give you my opinion. You seem to be able to get clean, but not to stay clean for long. I am a big believer in post withdrawal long term Naltrexone therapy. And that is exactly what Vivitrol is - injectable Naltrexone that is slowly release into your system over a month period. It allows your brain to heal and slowly restructure itself back to its original pristine condition. It will also let your psyche to become used to being sober and clean as a "new normal". Talk to your doctor about it. If your physician does not prescibe it, go on Vivitrol.com site to find a doctor who does in your area. It is usually completely covered by insurance.
I have written several blogs on this exact matter. You can reach them by clicking on my name and than following that to blogs.
It would be a very good decision for you to get on a long term Naltrexone therapy by getting a Vivitrol shot for at least six months if not longer. Good luck to you. .
Hey girl and welcome back
I just noticed you posted in the "Addiction Expert Forum" and it seems pretty quiet. You would get much more support in the Substance Abuse Forum. That's where you used to post.
I am back at it again myself. Day 5. I hope you are doing well.