What you need to start thinking about is getting off the opiates all together, because this is the eventual outcome of narcotic use. You stop being yourself. The actually change you brain anatomy and physiology and make you lose your morals and ethics. Good people start doing bad things.
Migraines should not be treated with narcotics. Neither should ovarian cysts (unless you just had surgery). That is simply NOT the standard of care.
First we need to get you off opiates and then , we can reassess what your medical need truly are together with a neurologist and a gynecologist. Sjogren is typically not a painful condition.
You can read my blog about detox options or call my clinic and we will gladly answer all your questions.
There is really no easy way of detoxing from home. I have dealt with hundreds of addicts who have all told me horror stories of doing it by themselves. I would only guess that if are successful in doing it at home you don't end up in my clinic. Just in case you are curious, it takes us three to four days to detox a patient and get him/her back home drug free and feeling well on Naltrexone therapy (no opiates).
At home, the basic technique is to space out the pills you take on a consistent manner until you take only one at night, then half at night and then none. See if your doctor can write you a prescription for some Requip for restlessness, Neurontin for anxiety and malaise, some Flexeril or Soma for a few weeks for muscle spasms and maybe some Seroquel low dose for sleep. It will make withdrawals easier. Valerian and Magnesium is sometimes helpful remedies over the counter.
But, seriously, you must be completely committed to the goal of quitting. I have written a blog that has rather detailed information about options for detox. If you click on my name and then click on blogs you will see one under that heading. Take a minute to read it. I hope you will find it helpful.
The main thing of course is the decision that you make and making it a priority in your life, because that will determine what your life will actually be and mean in the end. I don't want to sound preachy but it is not a decision you make one day, it is a decision you will make every day for the rest of your life. Good luck to you and take a look at my blogs and my clinic website for even more info on narcotic detox www.mdsdrugdetox.com
or call us at 888-637-6968.
Thank you for your response. I am committed now that the line between who I am and what my own values and morals are has been completely blurred. I am grateful for the annonymity this forum provides because I feel so ashamed of who I have become that I don't think I could talk to anyone otherwise. Thanks again.