im fed up and need help to kick this habit

[girlwithbrokensoul]

I am 23 and been batteling a pain pill addiction for 6 years. i have stopped and started back so many times i quit for about 4 months the last time and started back about 9 months ago. i started only taking 1 or 2 but im now at the point if i had the money i would take 10 or more. i scare myself so bad because im a small woman im maybe 120 pounds and if i have the money i will buy 20 10s at a time and it seems like the more i have the more i take. im honestly scared im going to kill myself and i have a son that i love so much and i have been truely blessed.  i need to get right with the lord before i die and im at the point where i feel like i dont even have control over my actions. i do not want to be like this anymore and i refuse to give up but it is hard. i have quit atleat five times and each time i did it cold turkey and thats what im going to do this time but the withdraws are bad and i was wondering what fruit, veggies, juice, anything natural i should eat/drink and what do i need to stay away from just to make this easier and any other tips you can give me for getting through this?  sorry i wrote so much i just really needed to get thatoff my chest.

[Julia M Aharonov, DO]

You are here because you are ready for change. When I saw your post, I got obviously very concerned, but also hopeful. You have a chid that you love, yoe you are not making the best decisions for him or yourself on daily basis. However, you seem to have reached a point of you life when you see all the wrong you have done and are ready for reexamination, self-analysis and most importantly  - change.
And change is definitely possible, and needed. The wonder and magic of us as human beings is our  potential and ability for change and growth. Unlike the other forms of animals, we were created with that unique gift.
We can look back, analyze our mistakes, our missteps and actually turn a corner and take a completely different road.
You need to start on that road by getting yourself clean. Here, you have some options that I will talk about:
There is really no easy way of detoxing from home. I have dealt with hundreds of addicts who have all told me horror stories of doing it by themselves.  I would only guess that if are successful in doing it at home you don't end up in my clinic. Just in case you are curious, it takes us three to four days to detox a patient and get him/her back home drug free and feeling well on Naltrexone therapy (no opiates).
At home, the basic technique is to space out the pills you take on a consistent manner until you take only one at night, then half at night and then none.  See if your doctor can write you a prescription for some Requip for restlessness, Neurontin for anxiety and malaise, some Flexeril or Soma for a few weeks for muscle spasms and maybe some Seroquel low dose for sleep. It will make withdrawals easier.  Please don't start taking the pills again as it will only throw you back into withdrawals once you stop again, or make you relapse.  Valerian and Magnesium is sometimes helpful remedies over the counter.
Another option is Suboxone "therapy", However Suboxone is another opiate that alot of addicts get hooked on and eventhough it is legal and can be used as a tpering tool in expert hands, most get stuck on it as a "maintenance" treatment, and to me, that is just another addiction.
But, seriously, you must be completely committed to the goal of quitting.  I have written a blog that has rather detailed information about options for detox. If you click on my name and then click on blogs you will see one under that heading.  Take a minute to read it. I hope you will find it helpful.
The main thing of course is the decision that you make and making it a priority in your life, because that will determine what your life will actually be and mean in the end.  I don't want to sound preachy but it is not a decision you make one day, it is a decision you will make every day for the rest of your life.  Good luck to you and take a look at my blogs and my clinic website for even more info on narcotic detox www.mdsdrugdetox.com

[donnah92]

It take all the withdrawls away your happy and can function. A doc in your area will prescribe it just Google for a doc in your area.

[nala1969]

hello, i have watched these forums for years and today i joined so i saw what u wrote and thought this is something i can help with maybe some earnest suport if anything i took vicodin for 9 yrs due to haveing a doctor as a hunting buddy i was takeing 26-30 a day on my absolute worst and that was often. i am a single father of my lil girl i own a comercial contracting company and would be so embarrased about my sickness evan thought it started from pain and i would plee to god to help  but as soon as i would drop down from my script of 300 tens i would just call my bud and look 300 more this went on for six yrs of the nine i took them well my good buddy got busted for script abuse and was gonna lose his clinic wich makes a lot of money on pain meds so one day i called in my normal new batch cause at this point i was deep into it and withdrawl would come in an hour after my last pills wernt doing anything i have a lot of spine and neck injuries and the pain comes on fast as we all know his office manager got on the phone and said he was not treating pain manegment anymore and i kneeded to come  in and get my last script to hold me until i found a new doc lol sick!!! so i went in and he sat me down and was real sorry about it but had to do it even sugesting where to go get new ones damm good buddy lol any way i got my scripts after his *** of an office manager gave me a huge judgemental speach she can shove lol i left and said i can deal so i went right back to takeing them like tictacs and ran out two weeks ago let me say life is beautiful!!!! it was the worset experience i have ever gone through i would have all the plesent bathroom experiences we all get and all the crazy legs and sweats and it is so hard i am crying as i type this cause it is this deep into the withdeawl and detoxing from those demons in the bottles that u will find crying at first from the pain and than the malaise of it all but i am  here and i have taken my life back and am done i am half way there i know what you are going through be strong pray it helps and i not all that religious but i cryied out to god real quick fruit & vitimins help more than u will ever know lots of that please talk to a doc that helps with this without more pills though this as well if u can if not the best advice vitimins, amino acids are number one they really help magnesuim for cramps imodium tissue juice i read that dopeing your self on vitimins and oranges your body gets depleted from vit c  from vicodin l-trysion helps pickle juice is the best for cramps or magnesium protein smoothes healthy foods work and trust me they do i am proof of it.
plan on bed rest and laziness for the first five to seven days u will get through this and u will be so so happy and will awaken to the life we have numebed away for so long  but i am 12 days in now and after 5 through 11 are rough but i awaken stronger and better every day so please please have faith in your self and know we all feel your pain and anexity belive in yourself and your future it is,bright and like i said i am new here and took yrs to have the courge and streghth to finaly join all because i want to help some one even one person be an ear or a coment to cry on so feel free any time i will walk my dog tonight which reallly helps exercise is amazing after the first five but as i do i breathe in the fresh breathe of life reborn into finaily freed from the demon pillss that captured us u will be in my prayers especially tonight god bless and be strong u can do this and keep on reaching out u are not alone i am sorry about the grammer but am typeing from my phone it gives me comfort to be close to people going through the same thing xause nobody else understands. u can do  this i know u can your soul is not broken its just asleep time to wake it up and feel again