one more day to go

[rach538]

Hello friends,
This is Rach538, I am sitting here thinking about how I am feeling concerning my getting clean plan.  I leave for the vacation home I have rented tomorrow and am feeling anxiety, excitement, sadness, a little fear, but mostly out of sorts.  I know I will quit taking narcotics, but this process is turning out to be a little overwhelming.  I am scared.  I am determined to  change the path of my life and leave the past behind.  Yet, there is a part of me that is scared about the transition phase.  I will have no one with me so my phone is my lifeline.  In one respect, being alone is just what I need, on the other hand, it's kind off scarey knowing I will be totally alone going through the worst of the wds.  any words of advice?  
I need to take back the statement I just made about being totally alone, I won't be totally alone, I will have God with me, my angels, guardians and ancestors.  I went to a session a few days ago with a wonderful energy/light worker. i trust her with my life and she said I will haave pleanty of support.  I guess my confidence needs a boost.
For all of you out there going through the same thing, my wishes for love, light and a healthy future to you.
For the Record: I do not believe we are diseased and bad people, I believe that we chose this HABBIT so that at the end of the road, we will have great lessons and gifts waiting for us.  it's a matter of choosing a new, healthy yummy habbit.  one that raises our awareness about who we truly are. and who we truly are is light, love, compassion, intelligence, and divine beings having an earth experience.
Love to you all!

[Julia M Aharonov, DO]

It is hard to stop cold turkey, but it seems that you are determined to do it. I will not lie to you it will be hard. Depending on which narcotics you were using, the acute withdrawal symptoms may take anywhere from two to four weeks to resolve themselves. The residual depression, weakness and insomnia may last as long as a few months. Make sure those are addressed and discussed with your physician so that you do not fail long term.
Please don't give up, it is only going to get better and better.  Before you go to your cabin, see if your doctor can write you a prescription for some Gabapentin for anxiety and general malaise, Requip for restlessness, some Flexeril or Soma for a few weeks for the muscle spasms and maybe some Seroquel low dose for sleep. It will make withdrawals easier.  You can try ibuprofen 600mg if you have pain. Please don't start taking the opiates again as it will only throw you back into withdrawals once you stop again, or make you relapse.  Valerian and Magnesium is sometimes helpful remedies over the counter.
Please take some time to look at my blogs (by clicking on my name and then blogs) to get more specific information. My website (www.mdsdrugdetox.com)  also has lots of detailed information.
You have a lot to live for and you obviously know what is important in life.  Eventually you will feel like your old self again but much better, because you will have regained self respect and a measure of pride in what you were able to achieve. And that is priceless...Good luck to you.

[1specialK]

Step 1 We admitted we were powerless over our addictions- that our lives had become unmanageable.
In order to take Step 1, we have to move beyond the fear of stepping off the addiction cycle.  We may fear withdrawal and the pain that goes with it. Withdrawal is not just biochemical and physical!!   The emotional and spiritual components of withdrawal from any addictions are of far greater significance!

Two factors that keep the addiction cycle spinning are the fear of withdrawal and denial.

What was/is your drug of choice?  Will you be detoxing?  Just remember how strong the disease is! One thing about a disease is that it can be controlled and managed> Diaibetics need insulin, Dialysis for kidney problems, etc...  We need to know that our medicine comes from filling our void daily with something positive!   We can not just stop using.  After the drugs are gone you are clean but your behavior must change also.  You have to identify why you "picked up" and kept "picking up". The addiction cycle, as a rule, cannot be broken without yielding to a Power outside ourselves.  We may have to surrender again and again, as we admit our powerlessness over, not only the primary addiction, but over various other aspects over our lives.
from: Serenity  I have been where you are! Surrender!  You are not alone!!