pregnant and I think I am addicted and ran out today. HELP!

[preggerbuns]

I am 22 weeks pregnant and I recently got gallstones and have been in and out of the hospital to figure out if I need my gallbladder out.. in the mean time they have been putting me on hydromorphone and given me percocet to off set the pain. It has been so bad that I can not eat half the time and my chest hurts so bad it feels like a heart attack and I start to panic and freak out. Needless to say, its been 3 weeks and I've been given over 75 percocet and have taken the last half of 1 I had early this morning. now I am worried that something will affect my unborn child and make him sick.. what do you recommend I do? I'm just scared.
oh also, for the first 2 and 1/2 weeks I was taking between 2-4 5/325 mgs a day once in the morning once in mid day and once at night.. but sometimes I'd have to take 2 at a time like at night when the pain got really horribly bad! Told my boyfriend that some people recommend saying something to the docs about how I feel sick and stuff when I dont take them.. but he told me not to because they will black list me or something? I'm not sure what he means by that but I am assuming it means.. write me off as a drug addict? I dunno.. but either way I am just mainly worried for my son, I know its not his fault that I have gallstones and got addicted to these pain meds.. I had never really experienced them before and I honestly dont feel mentally addicted, just physically dependent because of taking so much for so long.. they honestly make me feel pukey and dizzy so I've been sleeping ALOT from them and am not happy with the out come. I just wanna know he is gonna be OK since there all gone now.
I've already got some symptoms I think. Diarhea, leg cramps,shakes, RLS, crampiness here and there.. and I just feel all out.. flu like and panicky.. I feel like I'm going to barf! need advice asaP!

[J T Junig, MD PhD]

You really need to speak with your OB about this.  There are some risks to going through withdrawal while pregnant, but  the risks are not all that high, so you don't need to torture yourself over it-- the more important issue is having a long term plan to deal with the situation.

You may not be 'addicted'-- you may be 'physically dependent', which is a predictable thing that happens in everyone who takes regular doses of potent narcotics.

You need to have a comprehensive plan that includes input from your OB, your surgeon, and perhaps from your primary doc, if you have one.  There are risks to having a gallbladder that needs to come out;  it is like a ticking time bomb, and if you happen to pass a gallstone and get pancreatitis (a common consequence of gallstones), that would endanger your baby even more.  Your doctors need to balance the risks, and decide the order of things.  People don't get 'black listed' for becoming tolerant to opioids-- they get 'black listed' for lying, doctor shopping, selling or trading meds, or faking symptoms.  Just be open an honest with your doc, and you'll be fine.

[Eebb26]

How r u doing?

[preggerbuns]

I was open and honest with her and she told me to just deal with the pain and that eventually it would subside and to stick to my diet. She also got smurky with me and said that she knows I need the pain medicine, but she's not going to be the one to give it to me, and went on to say that my son will be a narcotic addicted baby and have all these health problems and be really fussy and stuff if I went on to take anymore, and I asked her what I could do to offset the physical withdrawal symptoms I am having, she went on to refer me to see a physical therapist and told me to take some more anti depressants.

If you ask me she did not deal with the problem very well. I feel like she is always trying to write me off, barely spends a minute with me and I know nothing about her other then she delivers babies. I explained to her that I am still having alot of pain and cant control my vomiting. She told me to take zofran and drink lots of fluids (something I do everyday anyways) and she said sent me on my way. I am not happy with the out come of this and I don't want to keep ending up in the ER in pain, I've tried everything I can and have exhausted every option/remedy.

The with drawal symptoms are miserable and I never want to experience this again. I have severe cramping in my abdomen, vomiting, diarrhea, no appetite, something that feels like RLS or what i would imagine it to be like... Shaking, and heavy depression (probably not just the withdrawals talking, I'm emotionally drained by this whole ordeal)

I am dealing the best I can. Thanks for your words.

[preggerbuns]

is there no one on here to help?