i think i have a problem

hi im a 23 year old single mother of 3 nd i think im am an alcoholic, it looks weird wen i type it in front of me nd i often wonder wat the future wil hold for my kids it i dont stop. About 5 months ago my life got completely turned upside down nd as a result i turned to the bottle for help.. weak i knw but i have never been to good at sharing my feelings nd emotions wiv thoses around me (thats why this site is so good) my whole life i have always been the problem solver so putting problems on pple would just cause double griefe. I drink every day from the time my kids go to school (bout 9am) to the time i go to bed (bout 1-2am) my kids r always fed, clean nd very muched loved. My worst fear is that someone will notice nd call welfare nd try nd get my babies taken off me. i have also been experiencing severe memory loss after being intoxicated nd i knw i cant live like this anymore but i dont knw how to start the process to stop, i have tried to so many times but wiv no luck, i live wiv another person that drinks everyday so between us we always have a stocked fridge of either woodstock or beer, i am starting to feel bad to put my problems on u guys now but i have to remember that this site is meant to help, any advise would b very much appriciated..

[missyaftc]

just wanted to say hello. im alone right now, my husband couldn't handle the stress and left me over night. he got mad because of his lieing just to make it thru the day.
Im sorry your feeling this way. Are there aa meetings you could go to..... if you could hear all the other stories you'd think about drinking water before you went to bed
my husband drank 7-12 cans of beer every night. it was scaring me, because this was his relaxing...
now he's gone i ahve two children at home and am not sure how im going to pay a bill
missy

[boogieman]

hi there. my heart goes out to both of you as i have been down similar ones myself. for dikoda, i would also recommend aa---just give it a shot---it changed my life as i was at one time consuming a half gallon of liquor a day and praying every waking moment for god to just let me die. it was my best friend and then it turned on me and became my greatest enemy. today i have a life that i only dreamed of.
for missy, i would highly recommend alanon as it is the single most effective resource for those in a relationship with an alcoholic. if i can be of further assistance to either of you, please ask and take care,  gm