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451075 tn?1210258648

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Hello,

I come here looking for help, because I cannot go on like this anymore. My problem is this...

I do not consume alcohol on a daily basis, I do not even enjoy drinking really. Sometimes I can go out and have 1-2 drinks, be under complete control and have a normal time, but once out of 5 times I will go to the bar or a club and can literally become possessed. It almost becomes goal to drink as much as possible, as I keep taking out money out of the ATM (last week I got 4 bottles of Vodka at a club, totaling over $1200) and buy multiple drinks for myself and people...soon to wake up in my bed (lucky that I did not wake up in a police station) not remembering anything. Next day I hear from friends and family what a fool I am, make a choice not to drink ever again, only to repeat this next weekend or next month.

What can I do to stop this. I cannot keep doing this anymore. I know what the consequences are every time. I know I cannot have any alcohol, I know how self destructive I am, yet I keep repeating this...

PLEASE HELP.
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451075 tn?1210258648
Thank you very much for taking the time to help me. I am going to look at the links tonight.
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It seems to me to be a simple case of alcoholism....a allergy..when u consume it u break out in spots and have erratic behavior.Take it from one whose been there analyzing it and trying to find underlying causes is a dog chasing its tail thing....it is what it is.....u cannot engage in controlled drinking.We have faulty wiring in there....AA says to keep it simple......first step in AA....drinking makes me and my life unmanageable.u will not meet a nice girl in a bar.....and u need to work on urself first and stay sober first and foremost...if u did it for 7 months u can do it again if u become committed to doing the work it takes to stay sober.
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365714 tn?1292199108
Sounds like alcoholism to me. You say you never binge drink, but get reaqlly drunk. If you look up what binge drinking is, ironically it is very much the same. If you drank up $1200 worth of vodka a week, you were likely binge drinking that week. Binge drinking is just as serious...

I compiled this up for people to look at: (It took me a full night to collect what I had saved in my bookmarks and put it in this format, but I believe it was worth the time spent)

http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Alcoholism/Helpful-Resources-to-Check-Out/show/390?cid=103

Ones I'd like you to look at specificlally:

How can I tell if I have a drinking problem?
http://alcoholism.about.com/cs/tests/a/aa040130.htm
Do I drink too much? (Questionnaire):
http://www.4therapy.com/consumer/assessment/taketest.php?&uniqueid=20&
Addiction:
http://www.stop-addictions-secrets.com/index.php
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451075 tn?1210258648
The mugshot is of Bill Gates when he was pulled over in NM, being 19 and driving a Porsche.

Longest I have gone is about 7 months without drinking/smoking. BTW, I am not trying to rationalize anything. I am trying to get more insight on my condition, find underlying problems etc.

I want to know what is causing this behavior in myself.
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u live in chicago?mugshot says NM?what kind of condition do u have?sounds like alcoholic drinking behavior that u rationalize well and are trying to find ways to not believe it is so!u sound like a great intellectualizer......some ppl r too intelligent to get sober!i was told to leave my masters degree out in the road when i went 2 inpatient 24 years ago.was a greyt suggestion.whats the longest period in ur life u've gone without completely drinking a thing?and no pot or other drugs?
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451075 tn?1210258648
Yes, you are correct. Well put. I am going work on myself. Any other suggestions anyone?
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What you have is the case of being young and naive.  

First if you want to meet a nice girl, you are not going to find her at the bar. Go to church, there you will find a nice girl.

You are getting drunk quickly probably because you are drinking alot in that short period of time.  By the sounds of your original post, you are trying to impress others by buying rounds and large amount of alcohol, just to make more friends or meet a nice girl as you put it.  

If I were you, I would maybe look into your self esteem issues and start there.
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451075 tn?1210258648
Can someone tell me what kind of condition am I experiencing? I know it is related to Alcoholism or is alcoholism, but more precise.

Once again, I never binge drink. I just get really drunk in a very short period of time, pass out and wake up the next morning to relapse the next time.
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451075 tn?1210258648
See, I can never drink two days in a row. Once I get really wasted, I realize what I have done and stop for a while, until the next time I go out. It *****, because I want to go out and socialize. I am 23 year old guy, I want to meet a nice girl and I am always tempted to go out, only to embarrass myself with drinking too much.

I am also against AA, because I know I can do it on my own or with help of other on this forum, family. I might see a counselor or something and keep posting here.
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243614 tn?1266197537
Whoa, what kind of vodka cost $1200.??  Okay, you have to stop.  See your dr. first.
I had to have a banana bag, iv at ER to replace things i was low in after drinking so much.  This can be a medical concern.  Join AA and go to therapy if you can.  These have been God Sends for me.  I know it would be so nice to just have a drink or two, but it isn't in the cards for you and I.  Keep posting, you will find good help on this site. tj
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Knowing that you need to stop is a start, knowing that you have a problem is good.  The only way that you are going to be able to stop is if YOU make the CHOICE to do it.  You can choose to not go out to the bar, you can choose to not drink. Sometimes it take a person ending up in big trouble to make them stop, lets not make this your motivation.  You need to motivate yourself and find other things that interest you.
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