Its gone FAST girl!the first 3 weeks of no use seemed like 3 years.....then when the first 2 came...and went....then after 5 it really started flying by!But I remain vigilant.....its been so worth it...i'm more focused and better able to break 24 hours down into one hour time slots.....got a brain thats always in overdrive and beyond where it should be.....i've really been working on mindfulness meditation exercises....u can google them.....helps me slow it down naturally vs.the chemical route!this world moves too fast for me...I sure miss the 70's!:)and life can change in the blink of an eye...and really hurl some boomerangs at one....so i always try to work on handling them better and tossing them back out in2 the universe!LOL!
WOW!!! Congrats!! 30 years is really something!!! We are right behind ya :) (by 29 years or so) lol
Great comments and insights ladies!You remind me what i need to continue working on in this journey of life/recovery.I'm 30 years sober/clean but always want to remain teachable.......I never forget from whence I came!Hope to read more from you here!
OTF....thank you so much for your honesty...I can identify with the pride, self pity and resentments. I have a living problem, not a drinking problem...it's just not good enough to stop, it's staying stopped and dealing with life on life's terms. It is SO uncomfortable, and I want to take the easier softer way, but I cannot.
Wow, you have surrendered your vices, and are on your way to freedom..thanks for keeping me going...
hi, i think us ppl talking to eachother about the process of change helps, so i would like to tell you for me it isn't only not drinking it is the whole way i reacted to situations and my thought process, alot of thinking errors going on!, i have been an addict and alcoholic all my life, but like the name i chose,OTF,, i fooled myself alot thinking i was the most health concious one out there, i really am an odd addict when it came to drugs, scared of doing some irreversible damage, but would drink like a fish ,when i got soo addicted to opiates i couldn't function i detoxed, but kept drinking, now i have been off alcohol for over 7 months and opiates almost 2 years, marijuana 7 months also, now i do have insurance so to speak, as i am in treatment court, and urine test 3x a week, but my thinking has changed, mostly i have discovered empathy and try hard to have an open mind, and not overreact to things, and accept things however they are.
I think also 2 big things are resentments, and expectations of others, i have to learn how to have realistic expectations of others or it can end up in a resentment, also i have to not try to impress ppl, and please them, and be honest even if it hurts their feelings (this is where empathy plays big part)otherwise it ends up in me resenting them.
and of course pride, i cant tell you how many times i have drank over my pride being hurt and then usually self pity would set in and it went bad from there, all self induced, if i had a little more humility it might not even of happened.
let me first and always examine myself!
what really helped me to learn these things that i should of learned as a maturing 20 something years ago, was getting a felony DUI, and being sentenced to a unique 180 day lockup treatment, but i embraced it after first couple months and now it is like a snowball runnin down hill, i know this is a life long process but i am grateful that we have started it, now i must find balance and keep moving fwd. and talking to ppl like you helps me thank you for being there......
Hey Odaat.. Your doing great! Congrats on your clean time!! Keep pushing forward! I'm rooting for you.