Drunken blackout? - scared!

[SiriuslyGem]

So I was out last night with my brother and his partner, I remember everything (mostly) about what was said in the pub. I remember walking home with them and opening the door. But then 'bang' cannot remember anything. I woke up at 5am in bed, fully dressed and with a glass of water next to me. I have NO idea what happened. My shoes and socks were neatly placed downstairs, something I wouldn't of done. I came home early in this morning and my fiance told me I rang him last night, mumbling about getting a taxi for me. I cannot remember that. I have tried SO hard to remember but there is nothing. How did I get to bed? How did the water get there? Did I do something silly? All these questions about my own life! It has really shaken me up, I have had little episodes of forgetting things but then remembering them later on the next day but this time was different. Is this a sign I should STOP drinking? I am worried about what it is doing to me.

[Nighthawk61]

You drink to get drunk ,and you black out. As i said, once you're a black out drinker, that's it. You're a black out drinker. U think you should quit. That means finding friends that don't drink, often. It's often too hard to be odd man out , not drinking when everyone around you is. Of course, it's possible, but you want to make friends that don't drink, or cannot successfully drink, you can do so by going to closed meetings at Alcoholics Anonymous.

That's how i met my husband, who like me cannot drink socially. It was important for my partner to also live life sober. How would your not drinking affect your relationship? Does your fiance drink? would it be uncomfortable for you to have him drink in front of you, or could you learn to adapt?

[Jacker]

Yes, this could be a good wake up call for you. And an empty stomach and tiredness contacts are also factors. Maybe time to lighten up a little?

[SiriuslyGem]

I stayed at my brothers house, so I remember walking to his with him from the pub and remember using my key to open the door. But everything after that is gone. It still has not gotten back to me. I rang my fiance from my brothers about getting a taxi for me to come home all though I don't remember that. I woke up at 5am and had no idea how I got to bed.

I was drinking on a empty stomach and was sleep deprived so I don't know if that factored to it. I drink maybe once a week but when I do I always get drunk.

I have found out from my brother that I came in, rang my fiance, sat at the kitchen table and fell asleep, my brother tried to wake me up to make me drink some water but I was out of it completely. I then went to the sofa and fell asleep there and somehow managed to get myself to bed with a glass of water all though I have no memory of anything.

It has really scared me and has put me off drink completely. I hate not being able to remember anything, no matter how hard I try.

Yes I have had times while drinking where I have forgotten certain things but remembered later on the next day but this time it is still blank.

[Nighthawk61]

I have to say i'm somewhat confused.

You say that you remember walking home with them and opening the door.
Do you mean that they made sure you got home?
Could it be your brother that put your shoes and socks by the door, and gave you a glass of water beside your bed.?
Then you say that you had called your fiance, (after you got home) and talked about him getting a taxi for you.? Like maybe you wanted him to get you a taxi to go and see him?

When you say you have little episodes of forgetting things and then remembering them later in the day. Is this happening without your drinking?

Now , about your drinking. What is your habit when you drink? Do you go out and have one or two,  mostly. and binge once in awhile on more?
Or do you always drink to get drunk.?

Not that this background matters much. Once you are a black out drinker, in my experience, it became the norm. In the beginning it took much more alcohol, than in the end. in the end, i could black out after the first two drinks, It was like a line had been drawn in the sand, and my being able to drink with out blacking out was never to seen again. You need to quit.