I am Grateful Today........

I just wanted to let everyone know how grateful i am for each and everyone of you.  I remember a time when i was ashamed of my addictions.  They were dirty to me and i felt like i was all alone.  It seemed so many bad things had come from being addicted that i wasnt sure i would ever see the light again.  I was so wrong.  Once i let go of the fear and decided that I was important and it was time to take care of me i started to discover just what life truely had to offer.  I finally admitted i was powerless over the drugs and alcohol.  I joined AA and a coffee group of recovering addicts and i talk with my minister.  I take care of me now, call it selfish but i am No 1.  I am a work in progress and will be for the rest of my life.  I live one day at a time and sometimes it is one minute at a time or even one second at a time, whatever it takes.  I have learned to love again, to laugh and to cry.  I have found that doing it my way doesnt work.  I have found compassion and tough love.  Material things dont matter to me anymore.  I can smell things now, my skin isnt the color of an elephant, my eyes dance in the sun and the moonlight.  My relationships are mending and i finally allow others to have their doubts without attacking them.  My actions are speaking louder than words.  I have respect for my addictions and always keep my guard up as they are sly, cunning and baffling.  Just for today i have so much to be grateful for........sara

[rod44]

You and me both Sara, what a life it is without having to be a slave to our addiction, to have that freedom, that joy of life without that people in recovery can find and enjoy…it is worth anything, thanks for reminding me of why I should be so grateful.
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[ibizan]

i third this motion!i am grateful for no more blackouts hangovers being broke associations with criminals....i love having dignity self esteem self respect and NO drama and BS in my life...i like THIS gal in the glass.i love watching the beautiful cardinals in my backyard.....enjoying the simple love and companionship of my greyhounds and 4 cats.....there are so many natural highs in this life!and i really dig sharing ideas and get to know u cyber recovery folks!:)

[dominosarah]

I have cardinals in my back yard too.  I have really gotten to love my appreciation for nature.  I no longer take anything for granted anymore.  How could i forget about the beagle and the cat....nothing better than to see the wagging of her tail and hear the meows.  I find a ton of comfort in those 2.  There is also nothing like looking into the eyes of the greatest love of my life.....my grandson.  To be able to look back at him with a clear head,mind and eyes just takes my breath away.......

[ZJILLIAN]

Thank you for your post. I stopped drinking 25 years ago with a lot of help and it was very clear that even one drink would start it all off again. BUT I never gave up opiates. Opiates had a built in control for me since they were hard to get. So I pretty much was a binge user until I moved to Costa Rica 2 years ago where I got  stuff easily and OTC. Long story but I am now 26 days drug free and must never forget that I am an alcoholic AND an addict which is strangely hard to hold on to when you are out of contact with other recovering users. Thanks again.

[ibizan]

No support groups there 4 u to attend?there must be!hope u find them and stay in touch with us!

[10356]

It brings me much pleasure to read this thread sara :) It has been 2 years and 3mo. for me that I gave up alcohol and a lil over a year clean from drugs.. what you wrote struck such a cord in me of appreciation that I had to comment :) I congratulate all of us that have found the joy in truly living of appreciation respect and humility. for so long we have put a substance above Happiness and others that it truly humbles me to feel the joy in spirit I do now.. If you are struggling Believe.. put in the work necessary and you to will find the Joy that lives in your spirit.. warmly lesa

[dominosarah]

Awww Lesa, what would i do without you........sara