I know I am an Alcoholic, but maybe can I stop?

I just dont know anymore about drinking.  I mean, I used to love it, I used to go all day doing it, and i have lowered my consistencey with it, which is good, but the days after, i just am not liking it anymore.  I feel so groggy today, like i dont really feel myself.  Its like someone has taken my brain, and i only drank like 7 or 8 beers last night.  I know I dont want to smoke weed anymore, or do other drugs, but alcohol is the hardest for me.  Beings it's so easy to get a hold of.  Plus it makes me feel better than weed does and other drugs.  Im just tired.  I've been alcholic or maybe just an alcohol drinker for about 12 years now.  I never had bids of anxiety and paranoia until i did alcohol but i've never just felt so free on alcohol.  So its like that Free feeling vs that just keeping myself focused and not acting liking an idiot feeling.  Or puking or hangover or whatever.  I dont know.  Basically all last year, i probably had more alcohol in my system than water, and thats the truth.  Its just not worth it anymore.  I've seen how alcohol ruins people, and i just dont want to go down that path.  Well, im having band practice with some friends today, so hopefully i dont have to drink, then i can say i had the will power.  I guess its time to start counting the days again.

[Punkinhead75]

One day at a time fella.  That's how I did it when I finally got serious.  I didn't really keep track of the days.  I knew when I had my last drink and if someone asked I would figure it out.  I still do that today.  I had a tougher time when I was counting days.  It got easier when I was staying sober today.  I know it's mind games but it helped me.

Keep posting and let us know how yer making out.  We're here to help.

[ibizan]

Oh musicgame what a game we alcoholics play with and in our heads!Good to see u back again after a hiatus.......hope u sort this out 4 urself!

[rpooo]

Don't fool yourself and think your just a drinker. You are in an alcoholism forum talking about the difficulties of giving up the drink and  "so hopefully i dont have to drink, then i can say i had the will power."

I'm sorry if you dont want to admit it since alot of us don't but you are an Alcoholic. That doesn't make you a bad person at all. I'm an alcoholic and one hellofa nice guy! Its time to quit completely man, I was 38 when I was diagnosed with end stage liver disease. Thats not very far away if you have my luck. I tell ya this sitting in the bathroom with the trash can at your feet and blood coming out of both ends is enough to scare the Hell out of anyone! Have a good day!

Randy