Mental Health in Danger

Alcohol has got me into trouble yet again.  It has a terrible effect on my behaviour, however I always seem to realize this too late.  I have good intentions to sort this drinking problem out, but I keep falling flat on my face.  The more I fail, the weaker I feel.  My hope sinks to complete helplessness.  Also the constant trying and failing is leading me towards an 'ugly' depression.  If this pattern of trying and failing continues I dread to think of what my state of mind will become.  To make this a little clearer, I do have suicidal tendencies and feel at risk to myself.

[Punkinhead75]

Have you considered trying the AA program?  The feelings and thoughts you are experiencing are very common among problem drinkers.  Getting together with other people like myself has proven invaluable for my sobriety.  I suggest you give it a try.  There are four mtgs in your town each week.  The next one is sunday at 3pm at upper shaw farm, shaw ridge green sn5 5pu.  I found a list by googling AA mtgs for your area.  

A friend of mine once said:

"It isn't necessary to spiral downward when we've been shown a way to be lifted up."

Afterwards he asked if I was willing.  I'm glad I said yes.

[rod44]

Hi, if you have suicidal  thoughts/ tendencies you need to speak to your GP without delay.

As punkinhead suggested you need a recovery program like AA. My experience with alcoholism was a bit like yours, deep down I knew I had to stop. I was ashamed and to proud to seek help. I tried so many times to quit on my own but it never worked. I eventually started to harm myself, I was suicidal but did not have the courage to follow through. Today I am grateful that I did not follow through because I have a wonderful life. My worst day sober beats my best day drunk without question and it is all thanks to going to AA.    

[Beanie0]

Thank you for your replies.  I feel less alone and take your comments on board.  Many thanks again.  Beanie0

[ibizan]

Many of us gave u good feedback in a prior post of urs What is the Prognosis?i would just be repeating myself which i hate to do.....so i will refer u back to my response to you in that thread!

[Punkinhead75]

Did you try a mtg?  Please let us know how you are doing?

[spanky595]

     There is always hope.  You need to go to a alcohol treatment center for 28 days you will learn how to stay sober it worked for me I went 2 times 28 day drug and alcohol treatment program.   I was in trouble all the time with alcohol and drugs to but if you go to mental health don't let that scare you, they have alcohol and drug counselors there to help you get in treatment and it want cost you money but it could save your life.   Ive done this myself I no that there is help if your ready for help.  The people that are in treatment centers will help you they are there for the same reason to quit drinking.

[crash2323]

If you are having suicidal thoughts,  I think you need to get to a hospital right awayl They may refer you to somewhere else, but your suicidal thoughts are serious.  Please see someone about your depression as well.  It may take a huge weight off your shoulders to talk to a professional psychologist or psychiatrist.  And you always have us.  Please update on your condition.

[Beanie0]

I had home treatment from the 'Mental Health Team'. It's generally been quite the norm for me to have suicidal thoughts - I clearly noticed a change in the intensity and length of time thinking and planning.  I have tried suicide already and am disabled, this gave me huge fear of failing again.  I felt a panick inside, but luckly used this panick to fight back by dragging myself to Church Service and talking to help-lines who eventually picked up my lies and messed up words over suicide, wether or wether not.  I didn't want to give the game away at first.  I was scared that they'd put me in a mental hospital. I was seen every other day at home by the Mental Health Team and am now out of the other side.

I'm still feeling a bit low deep inside but I'm beginning to get a little stronger in helping myself - my Church going has created feelings of 'perhaps I'm not so worthless' / 'I can be strong'/ 'I'm not so different from everybody else'.

I thank you for your patience and your reply has encouraged me to come back onto this site.

[crash2323]

Going back to church has been a big help to me too.  And I know of people in our congregation who have had their own alcohol problems as well (DUI's, etc.)  So, no, you are most certainly not alone.  And not at all worthless.  I hope the Mental Health Team was helpful to you.  It probably took you a long time to get to the place you have  been in with alcohol--and it will probably take you time to get out.  Have patience--people do recover every day.