Why do I miss my alcoholic ex-husband?

[Gerling70]

My ex husband has been a severe alcoholic for 6 years.  2 years ago I filed for divorce after 20 years of marriage as the disease was crushing my daughters.  He ended up finding a girlfriend and it destroyed me.  He asked for help in moving out of her house over the summer in hopes to become sober and re-gain our family, so I helped him.  He ended up in jail, felony DWI, and now is in rehab for 30 days as part of his sentence.  Our divorce went through during this time and now he has rekindled his relationship with his girlfriend (who has her own host of issues).  My daughters have told him that if he maintains a relationship with her, they are done trying with him.  Why why do I cry and miss this man?  

[ibizan]

You obviously have a history with this man and children!Looks like you've given more than you've received.......have you been to Al-Anon?involved in any counseling?