pleased to meet you, hope you guess my name

We hit it off at once. Became friends and lovers almost. I gave you strength, courage, and the inspiration to go further. I did for you what you could not do for yourself. All I asked was to keep me close, more so than family or friends, as you see, you no longer needed them. In time, as we became better acquainted, I needed more attention, time and resources. But I was your best friend, so you didn't mind. I convinced you that you no longer needed your spouse, your home, or your children. Even your health couldn't hold a candle to my power. I was your answer to everything, a cure all for your worries, after all, everyone else was wrong about me. They couldn't give you what I did. But now you want your space, to end our relationship. But you will suffer from this breakup. I don't give up so easily. I will make you doubt the truth, and question your sanity. I have you chaos, but now you want stability.

[narla]

What a great analogy,my love affair with the bottle went just like this.

Denise

[ibizan]

but whats puzzling you is the nature of my game!loved that song...still do!Ah the grand delusions of addiction...we think that drink pill toke snort needle brings us freedom from what what bugs us...and the end result is a tangled mess in our heads and in our lives!You have been too quiet dear.....we NEED you here posting!Hope u r back to meetings and have sponsor contact.I know you feel bad about that relapse but u came back and u learned from it and u r moving 4ward!You have so much to offer many newcomers who are seeking info here!:)

[dominosarah]

There isnt a day that goes by boogieman that i dont think about you......I hope you got Heaven just a rockin~~~sara

[rod44]

When I was lost,
you were there to look for me :-)


Remembering boogieman

[dominosarah]

I feel so bad yet.  He fought so hard..........

[rod44]

I think the one thing boogieman would want is for us to stick with our recovery program and carry the message of sobriety to other alcoholics/addicts. This is the best way for us to honor his memory.

[dominosarah]

Even thru all his suffering he always told me to keep going and never give up.  This has made me work my recovery program even harder.  You are right in carrying the message of sobriety to others who are struggling....He is looking down at us and smiling~~~~~

Thanks Ray.  I needed to hear and feel this tonight......sara

[rod44]

We deal with a sad loss like this by remembering the positive impact they have on our lives

Ray

[ibizan]

I was standing out in my yard the other nite....the dogs were out for last pottycall and the sky was full of stars.....our departed loved ones up there...2 leggeds and 4 alike.....boogie up there as well......at peace with no more earthy struggles.As the Beatles sang in Instant Karma as we all shine on....in the earth and the moon and the sun....on and on and on!my dad told my brother as he was dying and i think boogie would want the same....I want all of u to get on with the business of living!and like it or not....and many times not....we must...just keep forging ahead thru it all.

[dominosarah]

I have listened to the Beatles "Let it Be" a time or 2 since his passing.  The loss is great but i am focused more than ever.  I also believe the twinkling stars are our loved ones smiling down at us~~~~sara

[ibizan]

sometimes i think there are those who are just too fragile for this world we live in.....and challenges is a nice word for the complications we deal with.i think he knew what he was doing...and we'll never know if it was his wish to depart.....but he was a smart man and knew he was dying a slow death.....an accidental one he didn't plan...and no human could've stopped him....no one!We cannot read others minds!And we are powerless over their choices!

[dominosarah]

Sadly i know what you are saying is right.  It suks the major big one tho.....

[ibizan]

oh yes how i know dear!i could tell u many stories of those who died under the influence accidentally..and those who took their life with no warning...they had it planned..our former office managers son took his life in 03..it was a stunner....he gave no clue.....had it planned for quite awhile which he described in a letter he wrote to his mother.we were shocked numb for quite awhile.

[dominosarah]

When someone dies there are so many "ifs" but in the end it comes down to our decisions....

On a better note.....meeting tonight!!!  YAAAAAAAAA

[ibizan]

life is both yin/yang...sweet/sour and we keep looking for the sweet and dealing with the sour......i know u went to that meeting and got some sweet recovery tools!:)