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i had a dream i was on top of a car park i lost the plot u know  i was in a psychotic state and i thought things were chasing me and i was standing on the edge of the top of green street car park crying wanting to die and i was gonna jump when the psychatratic ppl turned up to try and talk me down bbut i was shouting in my dream i dnt want to live i cnt there gonna get me death is after ,me i do not belong on this world i was a mistake me i cnt live i was shaking i was scared but not of dying but of living then as i went to jump someone grabbed me pulled me back and i feel to the car park roof floor shaking crying make up down my face n there were the psychartist goign its ok we can help u n they started to read the statment to section me and i was shaking crying saying why did u stop me i wanted to die it seemed so rela like it gonna happen i was with two friends n they were the ones who called the ambulance n psych team, i can not shake this dream its like it is lerking with me sending me mad i do suffer with mental health problems and latley have had very rapid mood swings a few weeks ago i was extremely suicidal was self harming not getting out of bed crying all the time i was stopped in time from trying to commit suicide  like a week go i was very  hyperactive could not sit still be quite shopping talking fats rapid thoughts  no sense of danger getting in trouble sexual promiscuity then a few day later i snapped i was very agitated i was shaking in agitation loosing my temper crying all the time getting headaches n really angry and horrible thought rite know as i am writing this i am in a really anxious mood fidgety restless i also been told by friend i been acting realy strangely at time not making sense,   i am worried could this be a warning or is it just a dream with a message i do not want to ever be sectioned i been close to be sectioned in the past got off by the skin of my teeth  had to spend like a night or tow in hospital but so far managed to escape a proper sectioning by the skin of my teeth.