my GP doesnt listen

I am 69 and live alone. I am very confused som etimes, for instance taking my pants down and urinating on my chairlift instead of using it to go upstairs to the loo,putting my hand into a pan on the stove to see if the water was boiling (it was) buying things I dont want on tv and in shops, forgetting how to cook a meal, problems reading a book as I forget what I have read on the previous page, stumbling about as though I were drunk (I dont drink) confused speech, constantly wanting to sleep.  I have neither friends nor family, and have no social life as I dont drink, cannot afford the theatre, and am disabled so I cannot walk more than a few yards, so I cannot go on coach trips and holidays where I might make friends, and there are no evening classes where I live.  I get frightened when I hear noises outside at night.  I am in constant, dreadful pain from 2 hip operations and have morphine for spinal pain which affects my mobility.  I live on a state pension, and cannot afford the food I am told I MUST eat.  I have hobbies; making jewellery for a charity shop, and I used to be quite a good painter, but I forget how to do that and make dreadful messes now.  I love embroidery, but my sight is not very good now, but I manage to make birthday cards etc. for the charity shop.  I can go for weeks on end and not see a single person to talk with (I cant walk round the supermarket, so have to get my shopping delivered monthly by Tesco)  Depression has been with me all my life; I have tried to commit suicide twice.  I am reasonably intelligent, quite well-read and have worked as a Civil Servant, a credit controller, a nurse and in an accounts department; none of which I could even attempt now.  Sometimes, like today, I am quite lucid, tomorrow I may be a stumbling incoherent old fat woman whom everyone laughs at assuming drunkeness!!!!  How can I do what medics tell me???"Take plenty of exercise" they say, knowing full well that sometimes I cannot even walk to the end of my road, 10 yards away "Go out and make friends" they say   -HOW!!!!!, when most of the time I am housebound "Oh youre just being defeatist" I am told- not true,  just know what I can and cannot physically do, and "go for a nice long walk" doesnt enter into it. Hello world.........  Anyone else out there????????


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I was very touched by your post and I need you to know you are not alone , you have found us here at med help, you may chat to me any time you want to ,I am always around I work online so I bob too and fro, we help each other here thats what Med Help is all about, I help you ,you help me . Heres a good idea in fact I am known for my ideas, I have started a group called "Ideas for Economical Living" I would love you to join us here the Link..   http://www.medhelp.org/groups/ideas_for_economical_living____  if that doesnt work click to my profile under 'communities 'you will see a list and Ideas for economical Living 'is there, click and you will find the site. There are a lot of other groups as you will see, browse around for a few, its fun ,you make friends and you learn a lot. there are also the Medical forums ,I am sure with your challenges there are other folks need input and they will have some for you. PM(Private Message ) me if you want ,life is tough but trust me you can change it if you choose to..Welcome  

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