Uncontrooable Rage inside me why?

[Rossi550]

I get so angry at everything around me I do not like alot of things like stupid ppl and irritating populated areas like stores or resteraunts. I was injured in the service and have gone thru a life changing experience because I can't do what I was able to do before. I have a wife and kids that are awesome however I now watch while they play. I hate myself now and would like to know why.
I shake sweat stare rage and cry. I have the accident in my mind all the time and it is friving me insane WHY?
Help me please I need some answers.

[Dazon50]

Hi!  I have no precise answers, just some encouragement.  I think recognizing the problem is a good start.  Are you seeing a doctor about this or a counselor?

There are steps in grieving over losses & they sometimes take time.  Part of the healing processes may involve crying...people process in different ways.  Some people by talking about what is disturbing them can get better....others need more...with biological imbalances, need meds, etc.

If you haven't talked it over with your Doctor yet, I would definitely consider doing it to see what he/she can help with.

Wishing you the best,
concerned,
Donna

[margypops]

You may still be suffering from some PTSD it can take a while in some folks to feel better after a trauma, have you had any form of counselling as talking it out can help , You say you have' the accident 'in your mind all the time.Very often it is our thoughts that make us feel worse, if you didnt have the accident in your mind would you feel better? So what I am saying try vewry hard not to let the negative thoughts creep in, It is impossible to experience any negative feeling without first creating a corresponding negative thought,truth is our thinking will always create the reality we perceive.The actaul source of our experience is always our thinking. Try this..next time you find your self dwelling on what happened to you, STOP, before you get to the stage where you shake or sweat/stare,distract and  ground yourself, fix your thoughts on what the children are doing, get up and make your self join in, it will become a habit, it sounds simple I know but it does work,if you persevere and give it a shot. Good Luck let us know how you are doing.

[kathy434]

I understand what it is to suffer PTSD, no matter how you got it.  I also understand what it is to have lost something in yourself.  It is very distressing when what happened to you is still in your mind.  

Rather than let yourself live in that past, acknowlege that it did happen in your past.  Let yourself feel that anger and emotions of it.  It is better to cry it out and begone with that part.  It may never leave you, that memory, but if you make yourself live in the present time, and actually fill your life with your wife and children today, laugh with them, share your good times with them so they have good memories of today, this will begin to fill your life up with good memories too. Your brain chemistry will begin its healing process as you start living and restoring good memories in your present life.

Don't be shy about getting counseling for what happened to you.  Nobody expects you to just forget it.  It will always be in your life history.  But talking it over with a counselor will help you to put it into your history, and not run your life today.  Make this a starting point for the rest of your life, to now live in the present.  You cannot change the past.  You can be in the present now.  I hope this is of some help for you.  

[createttg]

I also suffered from uncontrolable rage. I told the DR. for years I was afraid for My wifes safety and mine. After putting a gouge in the counter in a rage I told the DR. that was it as I could no longer deal with it or the constant depression.After trying this and that I ended up taking Cymbalta. That stops the rages and constant depressing thoughts.I can now endure stress like a normal person and like Myself much better and so does My Wife. As for the accident You had- I was next to My best freind as He was severely electricuted. I pulled Him from the fire.We are both still alive and retired now. It takes years to get over it and You will never forget so live on and make it a point to get a passion or hobby and persue it with all you're mind and time will take care of the rest. Best Wishes.

[kathy434]

I hope you are feeling better today.

There was a long period in my life when nothing was fun or funny to me.  Life was just too hard everyday.
Then one day I realized it had been years since I laughed, even smiled, never smile because I wasn't happy inside.  I forgot how to laugh.  I had once been known for my laughter and joy and seeing the good side of everything and people.
I decided I needed to get those endorphins kicking in again.  They are your feel good hormones and pain relievers.  So I made it a mission to learn how to laugh again.  It started out as "Hahahaha.." sounds.  False.  But I kept it up.  I watched every comedy I could find on TV. and America's Funniest Videos.  I love animals.  They do such comical things and they aren't looking for anybodys laughter or amuzement.  It is all natural.  It is beautiful.  I eventually found myself just rolling on the floor in gut splitting laughter over things cats and dogs did under their natural instinct responses.  My mission from there was to smile at every person I passed.  They in turned smiled back.  Today, I make sure to use my best manners to help all people through doors, pushing their grocery carts, picking up things they dropped, wishing them a warm greeting at the registers.  Stopping at those crosswalks for people to cross the streets.  Helping a mother pull apart highchairs in a restaurant.  I didn't know her from Adam.  But she needed the help.  I feel good inside afterward.  May sound selfish?  So what.  It gave me a sence of purpose for being on the earth.
If you suffered physical injuries from that accident, your life if far from awash.  You have  your arms and hands to work on the computer, do computer programing, become a counselor, be a patient advocate at the Vet Hosp.  You can do work that requires phones, building things, teaching others occupational therapy.  I don't know your areas of interests.  But you don't need to feel you have nothing to offer your family or society today.  God meant for you to live through that accident, for he has other plans for you.  Trust Him to let him guide you in the direction he needs you to go.  You are meant to do something other than what you were doing.  And you will be rewarded.

[kathy434]

Sorry, I meant the last post for you.K