weird things goin down

[RastaP]

Okay so... back in middle school 7th 8th grade  i had a battle with eating.. and cutting.  I went to treatment because it got really bad bad enought that i was passed out at school and was hospitalized beacause i was so severly dehyderated. Well anyway i got better relapsed when i was 16.  When i was 16 i started using drugs heavly and have been till about three days ago.  I had a very very bad experience and i am on the path of getting clean.. i'm now 19 by the way.. i had been having a few issues with my eating for a couple months.. i always have issues but they were getting kinda serious like throwing after i eat sometimes when i hadn't even thought of doing that for like two years and one day i just couldnt stand it and did it any now its just there ya know. its always there thats the problem i cant excape it i hate this i know i can never just lead a normal life and not worry about it. even when i was better i still worried about what i was eating and how i looked. okay anyways enough rambling about that nagging lil voice in my head.  I have been sick with pnemonia (pneumonia) my body is all messed up i think from my lil drug incient and i havnt been able to eat i've lost  like 12 pounds this week literally i'm starting to feel better and i find it hard to start eating again i gave myself that taste of losing weight ya know it feels so amazing..it scares me alot alot.. almost more than getting high again which i'm not ever doing.  But i just feel like i cant eat i dont know. If i smoked a bowl i's be amazing and be able to eat and not care. but i've used that crutch too long too.  i still might toke up sometimes to deal with the effects of the harder stuff but i cant use it to make me better from the hell of eating disorders anymore. I was supposed to grow out of that stuff.. but nooooooo i''m stuck with this. then i had to get sick.can this sickness trigger my ED why in the world does that little bugger have to pest me right now my god i dont know what to do with it.

[Patricia Pitts, PhD]

Dear RastaP,

I’m sorry to hear you have struggled so long with your eating disorder, and continue to do so to this very day.  It is not uncommon for an illness to cause quite weight loss and for those with unresolved eating disorders to flare up again.  It does sound like it’s time for you to seek solid treatment again.

For more information on eating disorders, their medical complications and treatment options, visit the bella vita website.

Dr Patricia Pitts
The Bella Vita
Los Angeles, CA
Woodland Hills, CA