I don' t trust

  I keep trusting people and so many proffessionals in my state have let me down. Put it this way first I go in a hospital thinking it's okay finding out my doctor promised me one thing and turn my life into a nightmare with my health now because I trusted her I pay a big price of my health. It's bad very bad now everyone disappears that pressured me into doing a colonoscopy and endoscope. Also
I  was told I was in good hands. 6 min for my endoscope and only 8 min for colonoscopy with biospies takes both ways. Also the wrong scope was used on me that was promised over and over again it would be the small scope not the large one.The doctor told my family nothing was wrong. She didn't find nothing bad everything was good. So what happened. I got back to my room My left rib felt lifted, shortness of breath,distended stomach,lower left side I felt something wrong ,now all stool gets stuck in the corner.So now I'm a victim of a mess,Now I can't eat solid foods without pain pressue all over. I'm so tried of being a victim no one wants to help me cause no one knows what to do or they do know but no one is honest. Before these procedures that doctor meet me with no stomach distended no shortness of breath, no intestinal problems, no problem eating solids, no left rib lifted. I feel like everything is so tight in me and strangulated. I can't believe you go in to trust and they will save your life. I cry so much from this is a nightmare physical and mental this has taken my life how do I trust anyone to care for me now and what does one do to save your own life .  The family doctor that I had  let me down so much.So many bills and no anwsers..I wouldn't have had none of this if my NO was respected NO patient should be so pressured  into doing something they don't want to do I canceled the first procedure that morning and still was pressured. I can't trust how do I get pass this no one will gonna help me.