15 yrs old,OCD && ALONE

Last night was the first time i actually began to think about the things i do, only because my parents made me. i was sitting at the dinner table and i have these weird things i have to do or i will cry and scream and pretty much lose all control. my plate can only contain 3 things on it and if i get seconds they have to go right back in the same place the others were such as if i have mashed potatoes then my second serving has to be the same size or smaller and go in the same place as the others. well anyway none of my food can touch each other not even the salt or pepper. i know i am a freak right? anyway my family thought i was doing this for attention so they but a brusselsprout on my plate and poured salt on my plate. needless to say i freaked and a started bawling. i didn't even have brusselsprouts on my plate that whole night so it messed everything up. and it couldnt be reversed, so my parents started talking to me about my "obsessions and compulsions" blah blah blah and after about 2 or 3 hours of persuasion i agreed to go to a doctor or professional for help. but i am terrified because i know the doctor will try to make me stop these things i do but if i stop them then i will freakout i have tried, i dont know what i am writing here for i guess i would like to know i am not alone or crazy person.
somebody please convince me i am going to be okay.

sincerely,
Brie011

[Salyna]

You are going to be o.k.!  The doctor isn't going to try to convince you to not do those things.  The doctor understands your condition and that you have no control over it.  What the doctor will do, however, is maybe give you medication that will subside the urge to do these things.   I have OCD - believe me, you will feel a hundred times better once you get treated for it.  My OCD caused me severe anxiety because things were always getting "messed up" as your parents did to your plate.  You'll be happy you went to the doctor.  

[brie011]

thank you.
i will keep you updated.
:)

[ChelsMom]

I totally understand what your going through. I have suffered with OCD for as long as I can remember. I am 38 and am still on meds for this medical problem. Trust me, please, you will get better with some medication. Do you see that what you do, that you mentioned, doesnt make a whole lot of sense? This is a confusing disorder that can and does make most people with it feel abit crazy. I can remember when I was about 5-6, when I walked to school with my big brothers, if we crossed the street at a certain point, I would HAVE to remember were we crossed on the way home and beg my brothers to cross there. I always had to go OUT the IN door because I went in the IN door. I dont mean to scare you, but the compulsions and obcessions ALWAYS multiply and grow stronger. Please dont worry about seeing a doctor, they know what this is all about. This is a disorder that usually runs in the family, ask Mom and Dad about relatives. My twin sister developed this in her 20's and my 13 year old daughter has it also. You are NOT alone. Good Luck and dont fight it to much:)