My names Michael I'm 18 years old
It had been months since I experienced a bad trip from LSD combined with weed.. My mind was basically going 100 miles an hour as I was trying to sleep after a night out. eventually I started to feel quite uncomfortable as general uncomfortable feelings were coming through me in an almost looping, circular pattern. This led to the idea of myself losing control and that thought brought about a resistance to the drug which created a horrible dread and panic that came over me. I was generally very much in control of my external enviornment and my perceptions seemed perfectly fine, however internally i was suffering the most intense fear and panic which I failed to talk myself out of..also during the bad trip it seemed to be characterised by ideas of somewhat 'old' fears and phobias that I have had, or still do..these ideas added onto that fear of the bad trip. Eventually the horrible fear of going insane and being stuck in this 'bad trip' state consumed me. However I fell asleep eventually and the following months after that night seemed pretty normal.
After smoking weed a few times afterwards I found myself slipping into small, extreme states of panic which I usually overlooked.. I also found myself in weird states of mind that characterised my bad trip but were less like a panic and more of an anxiety. On one occasion I totally fell into a very bad state of mind after smoking weed which died off when I re assured myself that the drug effects will pass.. I stopped occasionally smoking weed after that.
Weeks or even months later as I was attempting to go to sleep, I managed to dwell into my thoughts and accessed a 'trippy' thought or image which put me into an intense state of panic similar to that of a bad trip which left me unable to sleep properly that night.. i guess you could call this a flashback. The next day whilst I was working I began thinking about the situation and thought about ideas and images of a phobia that was brought up during my bad trip.. this put me into a state of intense anxiety and panic. After that I had been in an on and off state of anxiety and panic.. eventually I came to a point where i accepted my own imagination and accepted that the only fear was that of re-calling the bad trip.. I also reached a stage where I was able to embrace the anxiety and weird feelings that I was able to recall , and the fear wouldn't come. Following this conclusion came actual anxieties based on suspicion.. for example I researched pyschology and started reading about schizophrenia and became terrified at the idea that my 'bad trip' related stress could lead to me going crazy.. this fear slowly faded within a week or so.
Just recently I re-called a childhood irrational phobia of mine where the idea simply made me scared and uneasy, almost in a panic state.. this was normal when I was younger However this fear I had somewhat forgotten about. I saw this as an 'actual' fear that was brought about by my own phobia. That night whilst dwelling on the ideas and images of my phobia I fell into another state of extreme panic similar to my original 'flashback' ..After that i began to become extremely anxious.. less about the bad trip and more so about the phobia.. eventually I just recently learned that I may have OCD as almost everyone in my family suffers from quite bad anxiety based on OCD which I was unaware of.. At this point I realised that mabye my suspicions were based on obssesive and compulsive thinking and the phobias I have make these suspicions worse.
After experimenting with lsd and weed I find that sometimes I 'zone out' and question reality and sometimes go into states where I slip out of focus..I imagine myself losing my memory and fear of having dementia or soemthing (This happens alot when I drive and look at other cars for some reason or If I look at things from far away) I dont know If this is just a normal thing that everyone experiences.. or if im really just thinking about it the idea so I think that im zoning out where Im actually quite aware of it.. I think this is obsessive thinking. I have developed quite a bad fear of losing my sanity as my imagination can create horribly scenarios and ideas of what it could be like to be crazy based on my experiences with psychedelic drugs.. I have focused so much on my own mind and imagination it feels like this over-anaylsis is making me notice things that were always present and I dont know what is normal.. i dont know whether my anxieties are creating this ? ideas of possible outcomes for my sanity and existence seems so powerful..but is it only the powerful negative emotions and the beliefs of the possiblilties which are making it so ? Occasionally I experience sleep paralysis also.. however it doesnt really bother me and I have experienced it for over a year, possibly two years I dont know if this is from acid or other drugs or if it is just normal..? I think too much.. It seems the bad trip I had made my OCD come into play and made my old phobias re-emerge
i just happened to be looking through the site when i clicked on this person who had a bad trip on lsd and weed!! it so happened to be you again. i have been their and done that too!! i wonder the same things. lifes crazy ain't it?
I too had that horrible bad LSD trip. It has been over 10 years since it has happened, however I have been in panic and avoidance for years. I have panic attacks and anxiety issues, and am currently taking quetiapine and celopram, or something like that. For anxiety and depression. I have had a recent panic attack involving irrational thinking due to the LSD trip. I am so sick of thinking about it, pondering on when it will happen again and being consumed by it when I tend to get tired. The irrational thinking that I get I know is false, but it still bothers me.
I would really like to hear more from others that have went through what we went through and what types of irrational thoughts they have so that we can say "yeah, had that thought" etc... I hope that things go well for you
It's always nice to have forums like these because the solitude can be incredibly paralyzing when it comes to these somewhat rare scenarios. Unfortunately science knows so little about the mind, for there is so much more to explore.
Well, I have a very very similar story. Over a year and a half ago I took LSD for the second time. I was really into psychadelics and 'consciousness expansion' and all that silly stuff proposed in the 60's. Well I had done my research and was pretty sure of myself. I tripped alone with friends, and long story short, had a trip that last 24 hours long, perpetuated by my anxiety and panic that endured throughout the entire trip and I felt like I was still tripping the next day (Never went to bed), while in actuality I was still in a permanent panic mode. There were so many factors thatled to my trip being bad, but essentially I developed an anxiety disorder. On top of that, I was scheduled to study abroad in a WEEK in Germany. I foolishly thought it would be a good idea to take LSD, alone, a week before going to another country, far away.
I spent the entirety of my year in Germany in what I figured was going to become a psychosis of sorts. I was, as you describe, lost in thought, thoughts about my anxieties, thoughts about reality, etc. Even toyed with the old solipsistic view that I am the only one and everyone else is an extension of my existence or imagination. That always turns out dark. Well I cam home for the holidays and was put on prozac. I had also been taking xanax which seemed to work a bit, but by basically turning me into a zombie.
Well when I returned to Germany, one night I was sitting on a castle wall and started vividly imagining myself jumping. And since then I have been obsessed with suicide by jumping from any heights. I would say it is probably OCD, but it's hard to tell. I have been on Zoloft, and a bunch of other random stuff that three different psychiatrists that I have seen have put me on. I am not on anything currently, but seem to be experiencing withdrawal symptoms from alcohol any morning after binge drinking or even in the same night if I only have a few beers or a glass of wine with dinner. I assume this is my body using it as a medication and then when it's out of my system I experience withdrawal from it.
Well, the point is, I am completely obsessed, compulsively with jumping. I think of it anytime i'm near edges, and anytime I am remotely anxious or depressed, as I connect the feelings. Our brain catergorizes, and this is probably where phobias originate.
I also experience strange coincidences on a daily basis, keep seeing the number 23, and also sometime esperience pre cognition, usually with dreams.
Now it probably sounds like I am actually schizophrenic or have just become another LSD casualty. I can assure you I am of sound mind, and I realize that my brain is probably filtering out certain things because of OCD, so hence the seeing coincidences and the number 23 (A lot of people do experience this, it's not just from the film). I also do, strangely often think of things right before seeing or hearing about them.
I think this is just another example of how little we know of our own brains, and how our understanding of the world may be a tad bit off from what is actually reality. I am not suggesting the supernatural, as this is where most of my fears originate, so anything that IS seemingly supernatural, my OCD brain assimilates towards.
Obviously there are so many details left out, but these are the major points. Every day is a new day, and it seems like there is always a new psychological struggle to jump over. This is what we get for toying with consciousness expansion in a society that isn't exactly friendly to such.
i too did the exact same thing and continue to have the effects. bit i didnt know their was lsd in the weed. my "friends" didnt tell me. i continue to battle my own mind ever day. but until i read this article that was on my facebook wall i had know idea wut was happening to me.
I had a bad trip and I completely understand man, I get the anxiety every day even around my close friends. I find myself not even able to go into a restaruant, or a store, I can't even sit in a booth with someone next to me, Its been a couple months since the bad acid trip. And I have only done it a couple times since. Its been 3 months since I've done any psychadellic. I'm the same when it comes to thinking way to deep into things. Hmu, if anyone wants to talk about this...I feel pretty alone on this subject a lot. People don't understand why I can't be around them sometimes...And It makes me wonder if I'll ever be able to live a normal life.
Hi, i took lsd in 1971 ! A long time ago. I had a terrible deja vu loop type trip, that all my life is just a bad trip, and it goes round and round for infinity. Theres no escape, not even death, and all the people in it, your family, friends, etc, are all part of the conspiracy! Total panic and fear overwhelms, ive actually ran in panic, before ive realised what im doing! Im now 57, and have had numerous flashbacks, causing me to panic, and even dreams where i am tripping, that cause me to wake in panic! Ive never taken lsd since that time, but smoking weed caused it once, and other times its caused by similar situations that happened on my bad trip. My lifes been ruined I guess, but I continue living on the best I can. Wish id never beleived
all that flowers and pretty colours ****. Burnt for life in my case. No, you are not alone, Im sure LSD does this to a lot of people. Try to accept it, turn it into a GOOD trip, thats what I do. All the best
I took lsd for the first time 4 days ago and i think i had a bad trip. i thought that i was never gonna get out of the state of mind i was in. The next day i felt so weird as if i could not concentrate on things. Then i start feeling anxious. The next day i woke up and had a mild panic attack in the morning when i felt the same and the feeling did not go away. I threw up right after that and my mind is racing and all i can think about is why i feel so weird and anxious. All i want to do is go to sleep. then yesterday i had another mini panic attack in class in the morning when i was looking up the after effects of lsd. Then throughout the day i try not to think i about the fact the i feel anxious and the fact the lsd might have messed my brain up. Then last night i looked up something called dysphoria and i feel as though i might have a mild version of this. then today morning i woke up and felt the same. is this the same thing and will i get over it or am i doomed for life?
I took lsd for the first time 4 days ago and i think i had a bad trip. i thought that i was never gonna get out of the state of mind i was in. The next day i felt so werid as if i could not concnertrate on things. Then i start feeling anxious. The next day i woke up and had a mild panic attack in the morning when i felt the same and the feeling did not go away. I threw up right after that and my mind is racing and all i can think about is why i feel so werid and anxious. All i want to do is go to sleep. then yesterday i had another mini panic attack in class in the morning when i was looking up the after effects of lsd. Then thourought the day i try not to think i about the fact the i feel anxious and the fact the lsd might have messed my brain up. Then last night i looked up somthing called dysphoria and i feel as though i might have a mild verision of this. then today morning i woke up and felt the same. all i want is for this feeling to go away. Will i ever feel normal? and what is it that i am feeling?
A few months ago i took acid for maybe the 5th time. Every time before i had a good trip, enjoyed myself, and kept my thoughts in control. But this one particular time i had a bad trip. I was at a friends house with 3 other friends and only 1 was tripping with me. What happened was, It was getting late and one of my sober friends was leaving. As acid does, 50 different thoughts started racing through my head. Because my friend was leaving i thought that i should leave as well because i would be bothering my friend by staying at his house late. I was sitting motionless, seemed normal to others but if only they knew what was going on with my mind. I was getting anxiety and couldn't tell my other friends thought processes on the situation. As my mind felt as though it was going crazy it was like i could feel the chemical unbalances going on in the different parts of my brain. That night i didnt sleep no matter how hard i tried. I had anxiety thinking about what happened with my mind for days probably weeks after. Once everything seemed to calm down i started getting anxiety like this when i smoked weed. Now when i smoke weed with my friends I can feel the anxiety in my mind, if that even makes sense. For example someone said a thought like "Mr.Hughes is such a ****, he threatened to kick my *** if i didnt sit down and listen." Now in my head im thinking how my personal opinion on mr.hughes is that hes such a nice and caring guy, but then its like my mind splits with thoughts because i take into fact what the other person said about him. And as im doing this an intense buildup of pressure happens in my sinuses and the right frontal part of my brain near my right temple gets pressure and not until i completly stop thinking about this the pressure stops. It troubles me to think about this and what it could possibly mean for my future, like will this ever stop? will it cause me to have strokes, anurisms(idk how to spell it) serious brain trauma? i feel alone in this situation and by reading all these comments no one has said that they feel it in their brain so it scares me. I am only 18 and wish that i never experimented with lsd.
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