Ah Snap!

lol ugg ya..hmm lol ok.. ok..

for some odd reason for like a year n 5 months ish now outta no where i mean no where! i am having these bad neck spasms or back ache around alot of people now and in class room..and even when i get in front of class now i shake just my neck outta nowhere like a nervous type shake and im like wth!!! because before i could talk to people be around alotta people n everything i wanna be around people dangit! o btw..like almost my entire family is antisocial...another problem..now when im at a table and people around..that i just met and want to get to know em outta nowhere! i just stop! cant speak or nothing...my neck starts to hurt (cerebellum area..atlas..)then when i force myself to speak sometimes it goes away others my neck just starts to shake and im like wth!!! i dont want this to get any more worse...before it was bad *** to where i couldnt be around people any then i was like oh hell no forget this no matter if it embarasses me or not ima speak around these peeps! i dont care...the people are gonna know that im nervous anyway wth!! so im tryin to seek more help then just myself and the general people i been askin because i need to get rid of this fast if not im screwed *cries* i mean come on wth kind of life am i gonna have livin in fear!?! or w/e (im guessing) because when my neck(cerebellum-atlas) starts to twitch and spine starts to hurt in the (thoraic-lumbar vertebrae?) i get this lil wierd breathing sensation or something..then i put my head down like a lil said puppy dogg aww :SS
*cries*! but before this (problem!) even came into play i didnt even care..to talk to people speak in front of class or anything nor think! fifty billion things at once!?!?!? well ok i did.....of the usual mystical dragons n **** rofl...but now im like no no go away no no! o and sometimes when i think to fast my head has like this lil entire spasm like i got electrocuted or something. o and i have a.d.d -.-

I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO GET RID OF THIS OR WHAT COULD I TAKE? basic problems: Neck Twitchs ,Mouth Twitchs Around People..and at home! no one around, when air hits me extreme twitchs hours ..no not just from the cold air -.-, multiple twitchs when thinking. nervousness in front of class(would just like to know how to get rid of it fast..if been just tryin to talk to random people i dont know lol)



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and i have like kinda fainted before..i got real hot...couldnt sweat..mouth parsh..couldnt breath n i couldnt walk..body was realy over heated from the inside..water did not help...voice was like dead...i tried to get up..mom helped me i was balancing on her and outta no where BAM! all energy goes from my body everything goes black...my eyes open and im on the floor! after that day...omgoozies!
i have this girly voice now and not a hugly creepy deep voice that i use to have..and my back and neck had been killing me for yrs...then it stopped and just became a spasm like i was explaining up their^^^o and just so u know my mom is crazy ^.^..


no really..she is (crazy) like 3 divorces same guy ecetera alota ****..and no she has been crazy here entire life..and same thing i have problems..afriad of people ecetera and i try to help her :S because she has a bachelors in administrator leadership and assiociates in some ****..and a certificate of medical treatment or somecrap lol and works at walmart..so ya..me prettty ****** up..all teh stress from her stuff..ya is was pretty harch she say some bad stuff to me..lol the worst that hurt was that she said i need to be living in the crazy home(believe me she said it far worst..and hurtful)o and that she...took over 1,300 dollars out my bank account...that i was** gonna continue saving up for college..she took it for her divorce she going thru...and her truck n insurance bills..and i dont even stay with herand my own mom said to me just like this  ( *chuckles* well no it was our account *smiles* my and your name was on it so it doesnt matter and no im not going to pay you back anything)(i told the banker to not let her be on my account because i know my mom...and look what happened -.- this all happened recently with the divorce under 2 months..etc.....and she use to come over askin for money everday..for gas!?!!? EVERYDAY then eventualy i started gettin mad and she would come off n on then but then when i totaly refused her one day out of no where i woke up with my neck hurting BADLY from a choking like affect..couldnt breath good or anything ..and my mom was above me crying and i didnt even know how the frake she got in the house....she said i opened the door for her!?!?!. all this stress is put all on me sigh..but is it getting to me i ignore it myself but is it getting to me n a way i don't know?? or is this a weird creepy phenomenon?!!? DUN DUH DUN!!!





r u confused cuz im confused myself so i was like forget this **** im gonna put into the hands of someone else...for a change..

[DeeSqueezy]

aww lol i inherited it..mother craper! it seems to come in at early adulthood aint this a bish!..welp gonna have to by me some xanax...

[DeeSqueezy]

i mean late..it says it is inherited from family mostly thru middle or late adulthood and i just turned 20 november 5th....(if you show no cases of it in early teens etc..) but ntways.. i would delete message but dunno how! grr!

[Trizmommy]

Dude you gotta get yourself feeling better.  Make  some moves to keep your mom from putting her problems on you.  Be strong, don't think that just because your family can't take real action to help themselves that you can't either. Seriously. You are 20. That's very young, but it is a perfect time to make those decisions that will help you in the rest of your life. And as for the twitching, I had that a lot with my anxiety. Xanax is nice, but it's kind of strong. And addictive.  If you need something to get you through life on a daily basis, go for something like Lexapro. It combats depression and anxiety, but you can still be yourself and take better care of yourself...Good luck, I hope it works out for you...