Am i suffering from Anxiety?

[Questions24]

Hey,
I recently had a HIV encounter.... Many people told me that it was a NO RISK encounter (Basically i kissed a girl after she may have given a boy a ********) some people said they may be a small risk so il went for tests etc to try and put my mind at rest...
I got a 12 week negative test result a few weeks ago and was starting to feel better as ive learnt that an 84 day (12 week) Rapid HIV test is conclusive but for some reason the worry is still there... :S
Some days im fine then other days i start to worry like "Oh what if my tests where wrong" etc, I know that it sounds stupid...

Ive been thinking about over and over and the more i think about the more stupid i feel i mean read this and see what you think;

1. The Male would have to be HIV +
2. The girl would have to give him a ** (Im just going on what ive heard from other people)
3. He would of have to ejaculated inside her mouth
4. She would have to not either Spit or Swallow the semen
5. I was talking to her for a good 1-2 mins before she kissed me goodbye so the virus would have to survive in her       mouth (She came down from upstairs to say goodbye)
6. I would need to have an open cut on my lip as we didnt use tongues etc

Test results;

7. My HIV DUO test result at 6 weeks was negative
8. My Rapid HIV test result at 7 weeks was negative
9. My Rapid HIV test result at 9 weeks was negative
10. My Rapid HIV test result at 12 weeks was negative

As you can see it sounds stupid but sometimes i start to worry about this encounter, Half of me wants to move on but the other half of me wants to go and test again (When deep down i know that 12 weeks is conclusive)

I was just wondering Am i suffering from Anxiety? Do i need professional help? Can anyone on here help me?

Thanks

[suzi-q]

Yes, it is definitely anxiety....you are being irrational in your worries.  You just gave her a little kiss on the lips?  I would say that your chance of HIV is zero....also you have been tested and it is negative.

Anxiety tends to manifest itself in many different ways.  I thought I had HIV also...and it was the same as yours...totally impossible.  Then once that was done, I thought I had a brain tumor...then MS, then Lupus..and the list went on and on.  When you continually insist that there is something wrong with you even though there is no reason for it to be possible then you are dealing with health anxiety and possible depression...I know, I have been there.  Please seek out a psychologist to talk out your feelings.  Best to you.

[Questions24]

Ok, Im fine when im around Family or Friends i only seem to start to worry when im by myself with nothing to do...

And yes it was only a brief kiss on the lips The HIV prevention Community told me it was a NO risk but i still went for a test, No tongues where involved (Well i didnt open my mouth) and i have tested NEGATIVE at 6,7,9,12 weeks....
Its just sometimes all the worry comes back :(

[scarred2deathat29]

You are fine! Trust me. You are HIV negative. Be happy and try to put this behind you.

[CG822]

I cannot believe how common it is!  I have a horrible HIV fear too and Ive worried myself to death and i never even had an enconter!  I assumed an infection was HIV (stupid, i know)

I dont know what it is about HIV that makes us do this.  A lot of people get like that.  I do the same thing when I am alone and bored, I worry worry worry.  I have meds and I seek therapy.  are u constantly looking it up on the web?   I have has depression for years and now anxiety.  

[Questions24]

Like i said i only seem to worry when im alone and yes i do look on forums etc...
However i find that when i took a test the worry would then go away but then about a week/ 2 weeks later it would come back.... :(

When im with friends or family etc all the worry dissapears??

[MJIthewriter]

sounds like anxiety to me. Have you thought to talk to a real life tharapist about what you shared here?  Maybe the root of your anxiety has nothing to do with the thought of having HIV. Maybe there are deeper feelings that you need to face.  The fear of having HIV even though proven negative is only the the surface.

[Questions24]

Wow cheers MJ really make me feel good lol :p "Just the Surface...."
The only reson im still not over this HIV scare is beacuse ive read that it can take up to 6 months, Mind you i have also been told that information is out of date; (http://www.freedomhealth.co.uk/forum/showthread.php?t=769)