Anixiety since Childhood

[Mahapun]

Dear Sir,
Since my childhood I have been experiencing severe anxiety in meeting/going/accepting newness of people/places/situations, and as I had grown up I had lost my father at the age 23. Eversince I had been experiencing mood swings, depression, fear, and panic in allmost every thing. I am in a Pharmaceutical profession, and started taking alprazolam ever since my father expired in order to avoid horrible panic episodes. But, now I want to quit Alprazolam which is 0.5mg - 0.75 mg/day.
Please help because all this mental illness and emotional incompetence has led me to jobless span for last >1 year, although I was working at senior management position. I am >34 years, and do dread anything and everything, even marriage.

[FJOHNONE]

Please look into the source of anxiety which very well may be fear of death. I too have early life experiences as my two brothers died (18mo and 7months) of cystic fibrosis. Anxiety cannot be without fear. And fear of death is the Big One.
May God hold you in the Palm of His Hand.

[cj29]

I am sorry about your loss? Have you talked this over with a therapist and your doctor?  For me, initially, it was very hard for me to go get help, but by talking it through I was able to get through the depression and panic.  As far as getting off of the meds, just make sure you consult with your doctor about it.

I also suggest that you join this forum; it has been a tremendous help to me and there are people that have and are currently experiencing the same thing as you currently are.  Please keep us posted with what is going on!