Anxiety Relaps *new^

Okay, so I am new here and am not sure how much information to supply, so here I go:

*Background* I am 17 year old girl, diagnosed with Anxiety officially when I was about 6, and have been on Paxil all of my life since then. I am currently taking 60 mg. My anxiety was at the time focused on the school lunch room and throw up. I wouldn't eat in my school at all, in a room with anyone eating except me, and if anyone ever mentioned feeling sick I would panic that they would throw up. We made as much progress as possible but my parents (still new to a child with these problems) resorted to medication. And then I was fine, happy happy, until about 2010 when I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease and am still sick with it now. And my main symptom with Lyme's is that I constantly feel nauseas and sick (almost like morning sickness). I was home schooled for a year and they messed with my paxil and now I have anxiety again (not AS extreme though).

Anyways, if you're still with me, here is my problem: whenever I have to go anywhere (without my family) I get extremely nervous and panicky. I am scared that I will be out and feel sick, because I have several times, and no one likes to feel sick. And the farther away from my mom (my escape), the more afraid I am. And if the activity is involved with food I get worse (which almost everything does), because food is associated with feeling sick and not wanting to be around food. I have gotten even better with this, but things have recently changed...

About two weeks ago I started feeling really crappy, and I have been talking to this boy who I really like (a first for me). I went to his sisters quince and was super nervous but went and we got to talk and then we went to the movies and he came to church with my family which were relatively "safe" activities. But now he invited me to his church and then a party with him and his family and it's like a 35 min away and I would be "with them" so I can't be in control when I leave and where I go and if I'm getting food and stuff. I'm going to try and go but I'm very anxious. He also invited mento go to Hershey park in december with his family for his birthday, and I'm freaking out! Because, I will probably feel sick and then have to ride rides which will make me feel worse and then I will feel really sick and then they'll be all like "let's go get dinner" so I will have to sit in a room full of food while I feel nauseas and it will make it worse and it will be far away so I can't just leave without ruining the whole night. And I WANT to go, but I'm also afraid to go. And if I say no he will probably not like me. Who wants a girlfriend who is afraid to go anywhere and always cancels?! :( help?

[CassCore]

Oh my goodness! I had the same problem you did! I answered your other question about being able to have a child. It's so funny that we have anxiety about the same thing! I started medication young because I was afraid to throw up. I would freak every time I felt even a little sick or if someone else around me was sick. That's why I always worried if I could have kids because I didn't know if I could deal with morning sickness or my kid's sicknesses. I wouldn't eat either. Not even at home really. I missed so much school calling in because I didn't feel well. I wouldn't go anywhere. My safe place was my bathtub because it was near the toilet in case I had to get sick I wouldn't miss. My parents weren't very understanding and would get frustrated with me. I used to sleep at the foot of their bed on the floor because night time was the scariest for me. I have never thrown up during the day in my whole life so I always am worse at night. Anyway now completely off meds and trying to have a baby. THere is a light at the end of the tunnel! Hope this helps you feel less alone.