I've felt trapped in my own mind for a long time. I've felt like I was going insane and at times I hallucinate and hear things. This causes me to have panic attacks. My panic attacks last anywhere from 5 minutes to 4 hours. I dont know how to control them or stop them but they scare me. I also feel the excessive need to clean and keep everything 'germ free' and if something is unclean or out of place I go onto the brink of a panic attack. I've told my mom about all this and asked her to get me help, but she just dismisses my problem. This has been going on for almost 3 years and my mind feels like it's going to explode. I just want to know what's wrong with me. Am I going insane?
Also, my mind will come up with strange thought such as 'If I stood up in class right now and took my pants off what would happen?' Or I'll think about nasty erotic sex
I'm not gross or anything and I don't want to think about these things but they always seem to come into my mind and I feel like screaming. Someone please tell me what's going on!