What could of happened between the age of 20 and 26? Any Ideas? Maybe life in general? responsibilites? That's a tender age, the age of #@$^ or get off the pot, I'm to old to remember those day's but I remember my daughter going through them, to her it was a lot harder than the teen's. The best I can recommended is that you join this forum. There are alot of wonderful wise people on here that are only to glad to help.
Please stay in touch and let us know what's going on.
You might ant tp put posty notes on icebox, bathroom mirror that say I am worthy, I am
a good person, someone loves me. That is short term, next you might get self help books from the library on loving myself, ect. Last but not least therapy before it gets any worse. Good luck