Bad anxiety over things i have no control over...please help

[DeadGravity]

So for the past 5 months i have been dealing with pretty severe anxiety, and having so many different symptoms, it's hard to explain them all.

And tomorrow, i have my first ever plane ride. Before i go on i have to admit that about a month ago, when i first found out that we were all going, i was quite excited and i even experienced a dip in anxiety for some time. But just last night i had the most horrible thing happen to me. I woke up from a nightmare around 2:20 AM, and shortly after my brain literally had a meltdown and i started to think about all the ways that the plane ride is going to go horrible. And to make matters worse, i had relentless anxiety for about 4 hours yesterday because it was my high school graduation.

Basically, i hate my life because EVERYTHING makes me feel ill, and like i might die. Tomorrow i have no doubt that i might have a anxiety attack on the plane, mainly because i hate it when i'm not in control of myself. Someone give me some advice?

[Paxiled]

I think you're posting here because you know you have an anxiety problem.  Your next step is to do something about it, and that first step would be seeing a psychologist who specializes in treating anxiety so you can get beyond this.  I'm not going to be of much help about your plane ride, though most likely it will go fine once you get going.  But you can see how you're thinking your way into feeling miserable and the only way to stop this is to stop thinking that way.  It won't be easy, and it will take work, but you're young and that will make it much more likely you'll overcome this.  

[AnxiousNoMore]

YOu wrote ", i hate my life because EVERYTHING makes me feel ,,,,,"

In reality, everything is a separate event, and all events can't work out for the worst. But you are lumping them together and viewing them as one related event  
That is one thing that you need to come to grips with if you are to find peace. Perhaps your only problem is getting stuck in a rut where you find it easiest to take the most negative approach because it is so familiar, and if so the psychologist might be able to point out some tips on how to change your initial perceptions so you avoid that rut.