Hi, all - I am currently on 2 mg. diazapam (valium) and 5 mg. celexa (half a 10 mg. pill). I just started the celexa about 3 weeks ago, and have been on an even lower dose (working up frm 1/4 to half to 3/4 to 2 mg last month - my own way - I was prescribed the 2 mg.).
Prior to the valium, I was on Ativan for about 2 months.
My understanding from my psychiatrist is that the 'plan' is up the celexa (although I don't know how far - I have dysthymia and ocd, so I hear...) and at some point come off the valium. I also have hypertension, so take atenolol and lisinopril and a baby asprin each day. I'm 59 years old. Anyway, I see my primary care doc once a month - he is a cool old-school guy, who used to see me primarily for 'reassurance' for various anxiety / ocd issues until he decided I needed a psychiatrist to give me meds. He sent me to a colleague, who has me on these meds. Those close to me - my husband, therapist and a friend who is a former RN and who herself takes lexapro, all say I am doing 'much better' than I was. When I started posting here, I could barely eat solid food - mashed potatoes were difficult. Now, I have made some real improvement (hamburger, cut up, soft veg, and so on), although I'm not yet where I need to be (can't eat chicken, and so on.).
When I saw my primary care guy yesterday, I saw I'd gained 5 lbs. OMG! I want to blame the meds but the reality is as I can eat stuff, I grab all the things that are bad for me, like donuts, cakes, chips and mex food. In any event, 5 lbs in one month seems high. My BP was also up but the doc wasn't concerned so much. He thought I might ask the psych to 'cut back' on the valium, as I complain of being 'lazy' and 'tired.' I will have been on some sort of valium in any case since February, albeit at a low dose. He also suggested asking to cut back on the celexa - to 2 mg. Huh? My psych said I wouldn't feel anything on 5 mg. I do feel somewhat tired, but I really doubt she's going to go down to 2 mg.
I think my primary care doc's focus was to get me to a point where I could eat again. The psych seems to be looking at things differently - telling me I might have to take meds for my ocd 'for the rest of my life.' I am just starting the process of trying to get ON SSRI's, not off them. Aside from some nausea and tiredness / apathy, no big deal on the side effects. But I am confused. Do I try to get OFF this stuff now? If I do, will I still be able to eat? Will folks think I'm 'better?' I'm inclined to think my success is from the meds, and that if I go off, it won't be long before I'm back to square 1. I don't want to be, but why would my primary care suggest I cut back on such low doses? I serously doubt my psych would consider lowering anything at this point, I"m almost afraid to ask. I hate to bring up that my primary care doc suggested it, as they are colleagues at the same clinic - and well, in a showdown, you know who gets thrown under the bus - and it aint either of them. One or the other will say I didn't understand or whatall, just to save face... at least that's how that stuff usuall works. Ok, any one have any ideas on what i can do here? How can I discuss this w/ my psych diplomatically? She's a bit of a diva, but she seems to be very smart and I like her. I like my primary care doc too, though, and that's the problem. They both seem to have divergent opinions. As I see my psych next week, I need input asap - thanks. Anna