DO I REALLY HAVE OCD/ANXIETY?

[Freedom_finder]

Ok so I'm a 25 year old female. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety/ocd since December 2016. Apparently I've had these things as a child. I didn't seek help until last year december.
Long story short I have been having racing unwanted thoughts for about a month now.
It started when,My husband and I had been going through a tough time in our marriage for a while. I recently was just talking to another person outside of our relationship. This person told me they had genital herpes. Ok we have NEVER had any type of sex. But we did kiss on several occasion. Never tongue. So from that day I went to the urgent Care for a full panel testing. Everything was negative. And have been tested recently again but,negative.I told my husband everything that happened. From then it all went down hill.for about 3days I lost so much weight. I was overthinking , suicidal, no sleep , couldn't drink water or anything else,couldn't eat. I started to feel like I was losing control and losing my mind.
So then, I told my husband that I felt like I was going to have a heart attack . From the ER I was sent to a mental health place. After being there 3days I was sent home.
I had never taken and still wasn't taking any medication. I really felt like I was losing my mind. I was terrified to go home, terrified to take medication, terrified for my 2yr old to come home. My body was tingling , my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest. I was afraid I was going to die or that I would kill myself.And I did NOT want to feel like that.
Anyways I was sent home still. Everything was fine when I got home. I didn't suddenly die. Like I thought I would.
I was afraid of everything. Things that didn't make sense for me to be afraid of.things I wouldn't NORMALLY be afraid of.
FYI My husband and I are on good terms. AND in couples therapy. I am in individual counseling as well.
I would think the worst for my life.
Anyways I still wake up some days feeling like my heart is pounding, through out the day I think about 1 thought that lead to a million others, its hard to focus , my body is tense, sometimes I feel out of touch with reality, I research everything before I do it. Is this what anxiety /OCD feels like?

Why is it this severe from one incedent?  
Any suggestions, any help !

[Paxiled]

I would say, don't focus on the diagnostic labels.  You don't sound like you have OCD from what you're describing, but you're probably not telling us everything that's going on.  The term OCD has become a fad for psychiatry these days, because there are drugs that have gotten FDA approval to treat it, and because to get reimbursed by insurance you need to put down a diagnosis.  Technically, OCD would have to include the C part, which isn't just obsessive thinking but also compulsive behavior -- repeated behavior that does you no good at all but if you don't do it you get really really anxious.  The only useful part of being diagnosed with it is that the cognitive therapy for OCD is different than for other anxiety disorders, because it involves forcing you at some point to not do the compulsive behaviors.  But as for obsessive thinking, nobody would ever have a mental problem of any kind without obsessive thinking -- depressed people have to keep thinking depressed thoughts, anxious people have to keep thinking anxious thoughts, or it goes away.  Also, childhood fears are generally not equivalent to adult anxiety -- all kids have some and they usually go away.  What it sounds like to me is, you had a trigger -- most of us on here have no idea what triggered our anxiety problem, and I got OCD from stopping a medication, so life throws a lot of stuff at us sometimes for no discernible reason -- but you did something that triggered this.  It might be guilt, it might be something else, and that's what the therapy will hopefully help you discover and learn to get over.  I'm saying this so you don't get scared by these diagnostic labels and focus your energy on stopping the kind of thinking you've fallen into.  Good luck.

[AnxiousNoMore]

The therapist is the only person who can resolve this because everyone is different. No one can diagnose from here.
You had no risk so it is not normal to just think you have an std. Are you discussing all this anxiety and/or OCD kind of fears with the therapist, or just the kisses and your husband's reaction?

[Freedom_finder]

no ive been diagnosed with anxiety/ocd
but this month has been a constant roller coaster with my thoughts..
i cant seem to control themi think i just dont want to belive i have OCD/anxiety

[AnxiousNoMore]

Your diagnosis seems likely to be correct from the facts you list in your post and we can't provide one. You might go for a second opinion since you disagree.