Depersonalization disorder

I'll try to sum this up the best i can, I had my first panic attack when i was about 12 in resturaunt with my family, mainly I felt like everything was fake and that there was going to be an inevitable end, but it came and passed and i thought nothing of it, it happened again when i was 14 at my uncles house but this time my whole body felt numb and i was unable to stay still so i went outside and started jogging and that helped. Now im 16 and about a year ago i used marijuana for a while, but one time while in canada i was smoking but then i felt depersonalization coming on it lasted about half an hour i tried taking a nap, listening to music (taylor swift if its any concern) the next day the depersonalization was gone, but i just felt "off" in some way, and to this day every single day i will have moments when what the experts would call becoming "self aware" its like being in between normal and depersonalization, when this happens I can either find something to occupy my mind, or I will cave in and have a DP moment, these moments are especially harsh when im laying in bed with nothing to think about but DP. when I am "self aware" I will be jittery and will try extremely hard to avoid the DP but sometimes i with think "what if the moment will happen anyways without my control" and that is no help and will fall into DP, I just want to know if there is anything  to help me avoid thinking of these things

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Have you ever tried cognitive behavioral therapy? Maybe that would help you train your mind. I personally am uneducated about dp.....but maybe therapy would help.