Dont know what wrong

[sarahcarson78]

Hi Everyone

I am so anxious all the time ive lost so much weight with this im 6 stone :( Anxious as in a i go over a bump in the road i have to U Turn to make sure i didnt hit anyone (even tho yes i know i would have seen them).

My latest is a drug addict at the local bingo shook my hand as a happy new year and i am goin out my mind thinkin what if she injectd me with something!!!!! I have hiv OCD as well as i just got test over a friendly kiss from my Hiv positive friend.

I didnt feel anyting or any pain. Could i not have noticed?

I also checked my hands afterwards no sign of blood or marks. Would i have had blood?

I noticed a small cut like mm in size when i got home but this was after  was playing with my dog and puppy! Im wondering was it always there and i didnt see it at the tme!!!! Would it be a dot or small cut?

Sorry i will go to the doctors i know i have too but any words of suppost would be great as i dont wanna wait another tweleve weeks to be tested for my 7th time in a year :(

Thank you all

[sarahcarson78]

would you feel someone prickin you with needle?

[remar]

I'm glad to hear you feel better. Sometimes you just need some reassurance.

[sarahcarson78]

I was scared incase she injected me with something not shaking her hand! I know im not that bad!

after speaking to lizzie lou i feel better as i would have noticed

[remar]

You do not have HIV. You can't get it by shaking someones hand or giving them a little kiss. I do highly recommend you seeing a therapist. They can help you with the OCD and your anxiety.