Eating problems

When my panic attacks first started it was when I was eating and everything I did swallow I would be freaking out because I thought I was choking. Now I can't eat meat at all I can't swallow it and I can't swallow some solid foods. Even at the end of some meals I spit out what's left in my mouth because I can't swallow it. I can't eat ouside only in my house and only if my Mam is there too.

This is going on over 2 years is there anyway I'm ever going to get back to eating normal or is there any tips or anything I can do myself?

I'm not doing this to be thin or anything like that. Anything I'm afraid to lose weight because my stupid anxiety thinks if I do lose weight I'm going to turn anorexic.