Fear of dying

This isnt so much a question, i have never joined these sites in the year and 4 months that i have had anxiety, but reading what people say gives me some comfort for a short time. I am now struggling to cope with the fear of dying, its only recently become very serious, in feb of this year i found out i was expecting my second child, and because i thought i could get pregnant then surely nothing is wrong with me, then tragically i lost the baby and after going through all the motions of miscarrying i suddenly thought well something must be wrong and it has gone on from their, i am constantly checking myself, thinking im pale, checking my tongue, thinking my fingers tips might go blue, asking people, going on google and looking up signs of death (the worst thing to do) and it doesnt matter how many times people tell me the fear just wont go away, the fact i dont die when i think i am about to and the fact i wake up doesnt change my mind either. I am on a waiting list for CBT but i have no idea when this will be. Any suggestions or comments welcome.

[Rich99]

You have been through an extremely traumatic experience and you can count on everyone's support to help you through this difficult period.

Your best course of action is the therapy.     The doctor and therapist will help you along with coping skills and bereavement issues.      It will take time but you will see light at the end of the tunnel.     When that happens,  your fear will fade over time.    Best wishes.

[ladyblue22]

hi,
first of all i want to tell you that i'm sorry about your miscarriage, its a hard time in a womans life that has to go through this.
let me tell you that what you experience is major anxiety...every body experiences those symptoms differently but the fear of dying almost all of us had once or many times.
you are not alone...:)*warm hugs*
you will not die, it is just your anxiety...your brain can trick you into a lot of symptoms that again scare you even more and then this goes on and on...
don't let your miscarriage lead you deeper into this path of  anxiety.
it is surely a major trigger for your anxiety but it is most likely not the source of why all this started.  the best thing in this case is to talk to a doctor tell him how you fear for your life and about what you do...he can make a diagnostic also a therapiest is very helpful...talking about your fears and trying to determine  how it all began is a great step of understanding and overcoming a lot of scary situations...
good luck and this will go away just go an get some help...:)