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722561 tn?1230749973

Feeling I will die in 2009

Hello all,

      I have just found this site, and I am very thankful that I have. While it has not stopped the feelings I am having, it is nice to know I am not the only person the globe feeling this way.
     A few days ago out of nowhere I was thinking about the new year and all of the sudden the thought that I was going to die in 2009 found it's way in my head. I panicked, my heart began racing, and a cold sweat started. I realize this was a panic attack. My issue is now ever since that day my mind has been thinking about my death in 2009. How I am not going to make it. If I close my eyes and try to picture the future with my son and wife, I see the image of a tombstone. I have a hollow feeling in my stomach all day long.
    While my condtion sounds similar to others on this forum it feels I am the only person in the world with this feeling. It came on so sudden and has stuck around at the front of my brain for a week now. It has me angry, and tired of feeling this way. You see I am the most carefree happy person there is. I am known as the joker to my family and friends, there has never been a time like this in my life, that is why it is so concerning.

Any insight anyone can provide would be very appreciated.

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722467 tn?1231360966
i know exactly what ur goin through i believe everyday im goin to die of a heart attack
and im only 19 years of age,i have a 4month old little baby who needs me and i fear im going to never see her grow up,its crazy what anxiety does to you,its ruining my life,and its hard to tell yourself its anxiety when your in fear of someting happening!
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722561 tn?1230749973
WOW, I watched the ball drop and my anxiety go thru the roof. Hope these pills help tomorrow. It ***** that I have a New Year's Eve party and normally would be the life of it, but this year I sat around and worried all night. This is by far the worst thing one can experience in their lives, I am 100% certain of that.
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650547 tn?1271773198
Glad to hear you're taking steps to fix this!  I can relate to what you're saying, I also had feelings like I was going to die.  I even was picking what songs I wanted played at my funeral!  Talk about morbid!!  I certainly didn't want to be having the thoughts I was having but it was like a struggle I couldn't win.  Medicines and therapy have been a big help, and hopefully they will be for you too.  Please keep us updated how things are going!  Best of luck to you, and happy New Year!
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722561 tn?1230749973
      Just an update. I want to the Dr. this morning and he prescribed Lexapro for me. Instructed me to take it for 6 weeks and come back and see him. Does anyone have experience with this drug?
     I explained how I was mad at the fact that I couldn't control this, and he said that is normal. He explained 10 years ago most people thought of anxiety and depression as a mental issue, but now most medical doctors think of it as a simple chemical issue.
     He mentioned he even takes Lexapro now and again. This made me feel better. Let's just hope and pray this takes care of these horrible thoughts and feelings I am having, and doesn't turn me into some nutcase.

Happy New Year to everyone!
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585414 tn?1288941302
  Anxiety disorder is very real but so is death. I've experienced the first as part of schizoaffective before I recovered (to be honest paranoia) and with choking spasms from dysphagia from the advanced tardive dyskinesia I have came close to the second before treatment. If you are worried about a specific reaction to an event as regards panic attacks such as social anxiety that makes sense. Or any other event. As for the change of year, its a date that really has no significance unless you are worried about real world events. But before recovery I might have thought that. That's true. But understand two things, the new year will be pleasent for some and a stress filled experience for others. But the countdown on New Year's Eve on Times Square with the ball dropping will be to a change of year. Nothing more. And as for death its ever present. It could happen at any time. And will happen eventually. But the two near death experiences I had reminded me to embrace life and to appreciate what I have left of it and make the most of it.
   But anxiety disorder is real too and needs medication and therapy but the specific fear is not. Use a little behavioral psychology on yourself. Watch the countdown on New Year's Eve and keep saying "nothing will happen" and it won't. You may surprise yourself but in a positive way. And then see if you can apply that to other aspects of your life.
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657036 tn?1229923556
it's horrible to hear that you feel that way, but possibly the best advice i can give you is to stay on this site ! i wish i'd discovered it before my issues worsened, i really feel as though i could have avoided many months of suffering.
as for your fears, this reminds me of the fears i used to experience at the dawn of my first major anxious episode. i would lie in bed nearly every night completely convinced that i would die, that night, in my sleep. this later escalated to panic attacks nightly, and then after a few months i was agoraphobic.
considering both my fears at that time and your fears now seem fairly irrational, it could be a symptom of an anxiety disorder. but i've never heard of such sudden onset anxiety, i'm no professional but i feel as though i've been told it generally builds up slowly over time.
you should definitely look into talking with a psychiatrist or even family doctor who could make a referral if he/she sees fit.
good luck, jacqui
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671435 tn?1230876528
im sorry you feel that way...i have the same feelings alot of the time....its sad...i think of my children growing up and i dont picture myself with them, i hate the way i feel, i realy dont have any advice for you, im sorry..i just wanted to to know that i feel the same way..I have actually started writing letters to my children, just in case, so they know i love them, i know it sounds crazy, i also wrote a letter to my husband explaining how i wanted things done if something were to happen to me...the best i can tell you, is what i tell myself..im going to try to live my life normally, telling myself that i will be around to see my grand children and if not well...they have the letters i wrote them and everyone knows I love them...i also tell myself im thinking this way because its my worst feer, but if i keep thinking this way I wont live happily..
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722561 tn?1230749973
     Generally I don't believe the feelings, but they feel so powerful and real, like a premonition of some sort. Really there is nothing going on right now that would cause me any stress what-so-ever. Life was the best it's ever been right up until last Friday when this stupid thought entered my head, and all the days after have been full of nothing but the feeling of dying in 2009.
     When I think about little things like concerts my wife and I go to every summer, the thought immediately goes from the thought of the concert to terror because I feel and my mind tells me I won't be around for it.
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585414 tn?1288941302
I can't say whether its just anxiety or an obsession that is part of ocd or phobia or if it has taken over your life that aspects of it are paranoid. Do you literally believe it? Or do you know its not true but it is preys on your mind? What else is going on? Do you feel depressed as well? These are complex questions and ones you might not want to answer but to speak to your psychiatrist about. Its not true but other people are thinking it but all for different reasons. They vary as to cause. It could be anxiety and a phobia or it could be something else. Speak to your psychiatrist about it but all the while tell yourself its not true and it won't happen. They can help you figure out where the thoughts are coming from.
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You're definately not alone.  What you've described is symptomatic of 'generalized anxiety disorder'.  I've had it for about 10 years now.  Before it was properly treated, I was CONSTANTLY worried about death.  The sad part is, it seemed like those kind of thoughts popped in my head for no reason whatsoever, and I couldn't get rid of them no matter how hard I tried.  A lot of anxiety is caused by a chemical imbalance, and though it can be treated with therapy often times medications are required to relieve the symptoms.  I've been on meds for a while and am happy with the results.  If you find that your anxiety is still around for more than a month with no relief, i would recommend talking to your GP about some medications.  Anxiety is one of the most common disorders the world over, and there are some excellent medications out there to treat it.  Also make sure you find someone to talk to about it.  Keeping things like that bottled in is very bad for you. It's good that you're seeking help and advice.  I went for about a year suffering badly without even considering that I might have a treatable disorder.

Oh yeah, and you're probably not going to die in 2009 ;-D   Axiety disorder is characterized by IRRATIONAL fears.  Just telling yourself that things are going to be OK will only work to a certain point.  After that you need to seek professional help, and there is plenty of it available.

Good luck!
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