Final Stages of Xanax Withdrawal

I had been on Xanax for almost 2 years. Some days I would be panic stricken I would find that I would have to take an extra dose, taking me to 4 mg per day.  The past 6 months I have started watching as my life became a train wreck and started feeling down around me.  On top of the Xanax I took Adderall (adderrall) for being ADD  and Vicodin ES for herniated discs in my back. My life was becoming a dosing nightmare. I seems one med brought me down so another could take me up and around and around... then one day it felt like I had stepped outside of it all and in examining my life and trying to figure out what had changed so much, the addition of Xanax is the only thing I could put my finger on. I didn't care about anything, was just sort of laxy-go-daisy and was not quite myself and this almost all cost me my precious marriage (which I'm now fighting to hold on to) and my family. That day I decided enough was enough. I was done and without contacting my doctor or thinking about further repercussions I stopped the Xanax, Vicodin and Adderall (adderrall),  I could have lived through the Vicodin and Adderall (adderrall) withdrawals without problems if Xanax were not in the eqasion but Xanax made and is making it living hell.
After 3 days w/o Xanax I was tremoring and dillusional, couldn't think clearly and on full day 3 had a seizure which was witnessed by my husband and daughter. If they hadn't just got home and witnessed this, I wouldn't have believed it had happened.   It is a living hell still today, 9 full days into this. The seizure brought phyical pain and it seems that this **** is slowly working it ways to every nerve ending and pain sensor in my body.  I had an EEG on Friday and am not allowed to drive (yes I finally called the doctor the day after the seizure) til after my results are back. Right now
I'm having diaharria and my tongue and mouth are mouth are numb. I figure this is the entry and exit point for all things toxic in my system and must be why they're being affected lastly. I'm just wondering how much longer do these symptoms go on?  I have read that Xanax withdrawal symptoms can be displayed for up to 2 years after discontinuation of the so-called "Medication."  After day 3 I started to see the world more clearly but find that anything that happened before the Friday I stopped is fuzzy in my memory. I didn't get any sleep for 5 full days but then I finally remembered having a dream so I know I slept a lirrle bit but it's a few hours at time so I can go potty.
My doctors nurse was supposed to call in some Ambien to help me, she called in the wrong RX so my insurance kicked it back and wanted me to pay $180 for one month of Ambien CR, hopefully that'll get resolved Monday morning and Monday night I'll get a full nights sleep.
I would not suggest anyone stop cold turkey. You do not know what hell is until you stop and start living a new type of hell... I look back and wonder what was worse, the anxiety attacks I used to have and will have to deal with again or the hell I'm going through now.  Nothing could be worse than this I do not believe...... I feel I have literally been to hell and back....

[abby10]

I know what you've been and are going through. I will pm you later with some information regarding the withdrawals. I just want to let you know - do not take Ambien under any circumstances. It will only make the withdrawals worse. I know about total lack of sleep to the point of being delusional. But nothing is worse that Xanax withdrawals. My pain is like I'm just one big nerve ending. A while back when the phone rang it caused my whole body to hurt " a body migraine" Nothing feels "real" anymore... the Xanax ruined my life. 8mg a day for over 2 years.

abby

[livinghell614]

Thank you for the post. While it's not "nice" know I'm not alone, it's nice to know that there are others who understand and can provide insight. Doctors see isolated cases, read reports but to get the "real" feel you have to ask a vast range of people and gather as much info as you can.
I was under the impression that Ambien was something that was used to help with withdrawal symptoms. I have been using Ambien for over 4 years almost daily, Xanax only 2,  I've had sleep issues my whole life and probably will the rest of my life but if I can sleep I feel like I can heal from anything.  
My pain doctor had put me on Gabapentin at one time for the pain, I don't know if they'll want to try that again or not. At this point, I'm scared to try anything.