HEY I NEED SOME HELP

[takisha202]

HEY I JUST NEED TO KNOW SOMETHING OK IAM FEELING REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW BEAUSE IAM NOT EATINH ANYTHING AT ALL AND I WOKE UP IN THE MORINGS NOT FEEL GOOD AT ALL LIKE IAM GOING TO THOUR UP OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT IS THAT OK OR NOT OK I NEED TO KNOW WHAT TO DO HELP ME PLESES

[sillysarah]

You still there, you really need to try and get something in your stomach, if you cant you should really go to the dr.  Do you have in surance?  Eat something like crackers or soup or toast.  something the wont hurt your stomach.  Are you stressed or do you not want to gain weight.  I really do think that you should go to the dr.

[takisha202]

HEY  YEAH I JUST CANT KEEP IN THING DOWN BUT COKE AND IAM GETTING WORRIED I NEED SOME HELP I JUST DO NOT WHAT TO GO THE DOCTOR YOU KNOW IAM SUCH SARED YOU KNOW
                THANKS YOU OK

[sillysarah]

I totally understand not wanting to go to the dr, how old are you?  do you still live at home?  do you have health insurance?  If you really can't keep anything down you will eventually have to go to the dr.  I know you don't wnt to at all but i am guessing that you don't want to get really sick either.  At least get some crackers down. the longer you dont eat the worse you will feel.  Not to mention if all you are drinking is coke you need to get some water in you so you don't dehydrate, that will make you feel worse than not eating.  the caffine in coke will dehydrate you faster.  Juice would be good too.   Real juice with some vitamins, though that might be harder on your stomach.

[takisha202]

HEY IAM 21 YEAES OLD AND YES I DO LIVE AT HOME
                                          THANKS TAKISHA

[sillysarah]

i didn't mean to ask I just wondered if having to tell your parents was keeping you from the dr. I just worry about ya! Water Water Water is my best advice

[takisha202]

I HAVE NOT EAT ANYTHINH ALL DAY TO DAY I REALLY TRY MY BEST NOT TO TELL MY MOM BEAUSE SHE IS SO WORRID A BOUT HER SISTER WHO IS SICK SHE DONES NOT NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME RIGHT NOW OK  OK I JUST CANT EAT BEAUSE IAM SO FAT I HET MY SELF AND THE WAY I LOOK RIGHT NOW YOU KNOW IT IS JUST TO HEARD TO DEAL WITH ALL OF THIS I JUST FEELING GIVE UP AND DIE YOU KNOW BUT IT IS OK I GUESS YOU KNOW
                                                 THANKS TAKISHA

[sillysarah]

This is a great website for people with eating disorder. http://www.somethingfishy.org/  
They have a great chat room and you can talk to people with the same problems.  You just cant talk about ways to lose weight.  I have no idea what you look like but even if you are overweight starving yourself will not help.  Whatever you lose you will gain back and then some.  Putting yourself on a healthy diet is much better and excercise too.  Trust me I know how you are feeling, I struggled with this for 7 years and I did not want to tell my parents either and I was older than you.  but you need to talk to someone.  I have been good for almost 6 years now but I still think about it.  howevr, the negative side effects not eating or purging does to your body will stay a long time if not forever. My teeth suck now, I have an ulcer from all of the purging.  I passed out from lack of nutrition a bunch of times.  And trust me if you refuse to eat you will get a feeding tuvbe stuck down you throat and trust me!!  You don't want that!  Please talk to someone, I promise it will only help!!!
Plus your mom will only have to worry more if you end up in the emergency room.  she will understand i promise!!!!

[takisha202]

HEY YEAH IT IS OK I DO NOT NEED TO TELL I THINK SHE KNOWS WHAT IAM DOING OK BUT SHE CANT HELP ME BEAUSE SHE HAS NO IDE  HOW BAD I FEEL A BOUT MY SELF OK DO YOU REALLY PASSOUT FROM NOT EATING??? IS THAT ALL THAT HAPPENS TO YOU???
                                      THANKS TAKISHA

[sillysarah]

trust me I know how scarry it all is.  I never wanted to tell anyone because I knew that they would want me to stop and the only way someone stops is when they want to.  Many times it is because they have something scare them into stopping.  yes you really can pass out from not eating.  yes it did happen to me.  In college my electrolites (sp?) were so low i was dehydrated so I passed out in the bathroom at a study session for my sorority and had to be rushed to the hospital.  Very embarrassing and I still didn't stop.  All that stuff happened to me and even grosser things because I was abusing laxatives too.  so gross now to think of but not then.  My whole life revolved around my eating disorder and i did not even realize it.  i would drive home on my lunch hour when I first started working just to weight myself.  30 min each way just to come inside and weigh myself on my scale.  Also, I hated going out to dinner because then I would have to throw up in a public bathroom.  I had sooo many excuses for why I had to go to the bathroom after every meal.  I was a master liar.  Trust me I have been there and done most of it.  but I also got through it.  I will say it never goes away completely,I mean the urge from time to time you just have to get through it.  Tell someone, you will be suprised and how much people wont judge and will want to help you.  And I also wasn't kidding about the feeding tube.  I am soo not trying to scare you, I just want you to knw all the facts from someone who has been through it.  I am serious about that website I gave you it is great.

[tanns]

I'm sooo glad someone is up!!  But, I'm not glad to hear you are having a rough time.  

Dealing with weight is really hard, frustrating and just plain sucks.  But not eating can deprive your body of soo many essential nutrients.  That can lead to disfunction of your vital organs.  This is of course over time but you definitely want to keep eating, just choose the foods carefully.  

I think you should let your mom in too, it will be a huge burden lifted from you.  That's what moms are for!!

[takisha202]

YEAH BUT I CANT STOP DOING WHAT IAM DOING IAM REALLY SORRY AND YOU ARE NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG I JUST GET REALLY WEACK AND FEEL LIKE IAM GOING TO PASSOUT I FEEL LIKE THAT RIGHT NOW SO IAM NOT SURE IF I SHOULD LAY DOWN OR GO TO THE HOSPITAL I JUST FEEL SO BAD ALL THE TIME BEAUSE I DO DRINK  COKES I A LOTE IAM NOT LIE TO YOU I REALLY DO I NEED TO DRINK SOME WATER YOU KNOW BUT IT IS SO HARD WHEN YOU HAVE NO ONE KNOWS HOW TO HELP OR WHEN YOU DO NOT HAVE NO ONE WHO CARES TO HELP YOU KNOW YOU
                          THANKS TAKISHA

[sillysarah]

I care I am sure you have more people than you think.  If you drink water it will definately help not to mention it has less calories than coke:)  If you really feel weak and can't eat anythingthe hospital might work best for you.  also a nutritionist can help you set up an eating plan that will help you stay at a good healthy weight that you will be happy with.  I don't mean to tell you what to do, i think thought you probably know that you should get help or tell someone and you will when you are ready just don't wait until it is too late and you really do some damage to your body.  Do you have a bestfriend or boyfriend you could  tell?

[tanns]

What about a protein or other type of supplemental drink.  My friend in college drank "ensure" because she couldn't keep anything down, the stress from school overwhelmed her.  She had an eating problem in the past and she tried really hard not to go back there.  I wouldn't suggest it long term but just to get some vitamins and minerals back in you.  Have you tried those before?

[takisha202]

YEAH BUT MY BOYFREND CANT HELP ME EATHE YOU KNOW I JUST THINK IAM GOING TO DIE IF I DO NOT EAT LIKE I SHOULD BUT I CANT BEAUSE EVERTIME I DO I FEEL REALLY SICK AND IAM GETTING TO THE PORIT WHERE I REALLY DO NOT CARE IN MORE YOU KNOW IS THAT THE WAY YOU FELT?? OR NOT???  I JUST THINK SOMETHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME YOU KNOW YOU WHAT I MEAN
                            THANK YOU ALL FOR YOU HELP
                                      TAKISHA TAYLOR
                            IAM UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IF YOU ANY OF YOU ALL HAVE MSN MESSGER ADD ME IAM ALWAYS LOOKING FOR SOME TO TALK TO YOU KNOW MINE IS takisha_taylor1985***@****

[takisha202]

HEY YOU ALL I HAVE A QUES??? I HAVE TO TAKR SLEEPING PILLS JUST TO SLEEP AT NIGHT IS THAT OK OR NOT OK ???
                                      THANKS TAKISHA

[tanns]

I know that they can be addictive and that's not good.  I have never been able to take them but my mom does (ambien) and we are working really hard with her doc to try and get her off.  It's really hard.  

What helped me start sleeping better is I started walking again.  I have always been a walker but when all my anxiety stuff started happening I really put the brakes on it.  Try 30 minutes or so, anytime or even 15.  Once you start, you'll like how it makes you feel.  It also helps with lifting your mood.  

You mentioned your boyfriend, have you talked to him?  He may be able to help just by listening, it might be all you need to get all this off your back.

[sillysarah]

I am not on my computer I am on my boyfriends but when I get home I wll add you to my messenger . i am sure i could do it from here but I am computer illiterate, hehe.  I know exactly how you feel.  I kept scaring myself because i started to throw up blood so I went online and found that website that i gave you earlier and started going on that and listening to everyone else talk about how they felt and I realized that i was not alone.  it took me several years and many attempts and failures before I was able to take care of my ED.  I finally had to go to an eating disorder clinic when I realized that i was not going to stop on my own.  It is scarry trust me i still have other issues to deal with.  I have an attraction to vicodin and i take that more than I should!!  I will say that lack of nutrition can affect your whole mood.  If you are not getting the right vitamins it can make your anxiety and depression worse. It is a viscious cycle because the more depressed and anxious you are the less you want to eat. Dont ever apologize it is a sickness, you don't need to feel bad you just want to take care of it :)  Remember you have a boyriend and a mother that love you and would want to help you.  you just have to trust them.  Deciding to get help is the hardest thing to do!  Just you getting online and talking about it is a step in the right direction.  I have to go soon my poor boyfriend wants to watch a movie and I am making him wait, hehe.  My msn name is, don't laugh I was bored at work,  ***@****.  feel free to add me to your list.  Are you going to be ok tonight???  I worry about you!!

[sillysarah]

sleeping pills are ok but tanns is right you want to watch out because they can be addicting.  However, i am with you on not being able to sleep.  I have to take advil or tylenol pm to sleep and for a long time before that I took valium.  there is supposed to be a new sleeping pill out that is non habit forming, maybe find out more about that.  If you decide to go to the dr he could help you out with something to sleep.  I also agree with tanns about walking or doing any kind of excercise it is supposed to help a lot with sleeping

[takisha202]

HEY YOU ALL ARE SO SWEET BUT IAM NOT SURE IF IAM GOING TO BE OK OR NOT I DO NOT FEEL OK RIGHT NOW
                                               THANKS YA ALL
                                               TAKISHA

[sillysarah]

If you start to feel really bad PLEASE go to the dr!!!!!!!!!  Think about how sad your mom would be if you got really sick!!!  And your boyfriend too!!  If you can't do it for yourself do it for them.  How would you feel if your mom was sick and needed help but would come to you because she was afraid of how you would react?  I think you would want her to tell you!  I am worried about leaving you.  I want to make sure you are ok!!  Just promise me you will go to the hospital if you cant eat at least a piece of toast or cracker, hell it could be a 0 calorie rice cake just eat something please!!  ok i will back off, but some of your posts really worry me!

[396SS]

THIS HAS GONE ON LONG ENOUGH.

GO TO THE ER.  GET MEDICAL ATTENTION.  PERIOD.  

WE DO CARE, BUT WE ARE NOT DOCTORS AND CANNOT SEE YOU, LET ALONE GET YOU WELL - GET THE MEDICAL TREATMENT YOU NEED AND STOP PLAYING WITH YOUR LIFE.

[takisha202]

IAM REALLY SORRY SORRY OK THANKS ALL YOUR HELP OK
                                GOD BLESS YOU ALL
                                    TAKISHA