HIV Anxiety

[Onemoretime2015]

Hi.....I have absolutely no where to turn too and then I found this site.  I am a male in my latter 30's. I have always suffered from some type of anxiety. Whether it was about me losing my job, losing my kids, but now its about HIV. I was married for YEARS until it came to an abrupt end.

I have now ventured out a bit and had two encounters. Both were protected sex...even oral was protected. Yet, I feel in my heart of hearts that I will be infected. I have been searching websites about symptoms, and have taken so many HIV tests. I took the Oraquick ones from like week 2 up to week 8. Then I found a clinic that does a test for free. I am testing negative which is awesome. Now here is where it get totally screwed....

I hooked up again and we had protected sex. It was protected anal. I even tested the condom after to make sure it didn't have any tears or leaks....and it was ok. YET....I still feel like its going to happen to me.

I cant sleep well, I am constantly checking my lymph nodes, looking for a sore throat...etc...etc.  This anxiety is not normal? it is normal? I am alone? I am not alone?  If someone can reach out to me I would appreciate it.  Maybe someone with some knowledge about HIV anxiety?

[RubyWitch]

You practice safe sex so your next step would be to find out why you are so anxious about it. I strongly recommend therapy so you can get on with your life.
I wish you the peace you need.
RubyWitch

[Onemoretime2015]

thanks bro :)

[dannyb714]

hello after reading your post your not alone i have had the same feeling of anxiety after haveing sex i feel like i cant trust no girl even if they look like a very clean girl i still feel like there infected but yea i feel you ive done 1 hiv ttest and it was negative look my best advise is dont worry try to work your mind on something else i know it hard but if you let your anxiety get to you it will always haunt you this way also what really worked for me is to find a hobby like bikeing or building your dream car jaja thats me and spending time with your loved ones point is do not worry life is so short to be worring about these kinds of things be active relax your not aloone trust me try this site it helped me alot its called 7cupsoftea.com hope it works for you and if you need someone to talk to iam here for you iam verry good at listenign and helping