Help...

[Irisbritney]

For the passed few days I've been feeling "weird" again, I don't know if it's due to stress (school and family problems), the heat or the gravol I take. Right now I feel like crying and I don't know why, I feel jittery, like I'm going to lose my mind. I also keep having suicidal thoughts, a few times a day I feel like I can actually do it, just so I won't feel anything anymore, I want it all to end. I'm scared I'll get into the wrong mind set and I'll end up killing myself, I'm scared to die but I'll do anything to end these feelings.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a dream (mostly at night) and I almost panic because I think of hurting myself to see if it's really a dream, I hate night time. I feel like I have no purpose in life, no reason to live. I'm tired all the time, I don't want to do anything but sit here watching movies and playing video games.

I feel so scared right now, I feel panicky ugh...
I hate my life...
I don't know what to do.. I don't want to tell anyone because I don't want to bother anyone with my feelings.

[DeeMarieee]

Wowl, I just teared up. I honestly feel like Im reading something that I wrote. I feel the EXACT same way. I sometimes think about ending my life because the feelings I expierence are so bad. Im also afraid that I will get the balls to actually Kill myself, even though my biggest fear is dying. I understand where you're coming from 100%. I feel like it all get worse at night and I cry my eyes out almost every single night. I feel like this is a damn nightmare. I've been praying that one day I'll wake up and feel myself again.. Im also always tired Im so sorry to hear you are going through this too. Please, Im always on this site and if you EVER need someone to talk to I am here for you! Even if you need to just vent.

[jaygo]

I no wot you are going threw I av these thoughts I suffer with Heath anxiety like you I can't see me being like this go and see a Dr they can help ok I am on loads of meds but they help you ar so young and so much to live for I try to grt these thoughts out of my head and think of those you love and the hurt you would cause by doing this go and see a Dr I wish you all the best blessings be

[simplychetan]

tell everything to your doctor . dont hide anything at least from him.

[Irisbritney]

I seen a psychologist and he said it sounds like I have depression.
I wasn't feeling like that just only about family and school there are other things going on, I just didn't mention them

[simplychetan]

all you got to do is talk to your parents and friends about this . go see a doctor . stay positive . just think that people are suffering with lifetime diseases whereas u can get out of this . i also felt the same in the previous month . now i dont fear anything , no suicidal thoughts .

[anxiety860]

You need to talk to your parents/spouse/doctor somebody about the way you feel. Let me tell you this. Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem. You can get past these awful feelings if you work hard at it, and the hard work is well worth it. I had a friend take his life 7 years ago at the age of 18. All of his friends and family just wish he spoke out and asked for help. Now he is missing out on so much. His parents having grandchildren, his brother getting married, just living life. I promise you can beat this if you put your mind to it.

[fantima_r]

hey..actually...you have a lot of spare time to think about all that fuss...engage your self in healthy activities...come on lady you can't end  your life on small house and school problems...there is so much that can get worse...so just be happy...Say Thanks to your creator for giving you the strength to breath ,see,hear,eat,and live