Hernia, Marijuana, and Anxiety

[SGB90]

I'm going crazy let me just say that.  Ever since a month ago when I though I had a hernia I've been going insane and I've had crazy heartbeats that I think are due to anxiety (so does my doctor).  So crazy, that I was able to drop weed just like that (after 2 years of solid  ..and I mean solid use).  I've had atleast 10 doctor visits (4 different doctors) who tell me they think I've got a small hernia but its nothing to be worried about right now and then an ultrasound in which they told me they saw no sign of a hernia.  So the smallest possibility of having one is driving me insane because I used to workout, play soccer, and smoke all the time with no big problems.  I've had to drop all three because of worrying and it is really pissing me off!  Any insight to this would be great.  I want to smoke weed once and a while with my friends but when I've smoked at home by myself  (once in the last 2 weeks) I feel my heartbeat go nuts and then I freak out (even when I try and tell myself I'm ok, and I take deep slow breathes)...What can I do? This weekend I'm going to visit some people and I know smoking will be in the plan (even with me still questioning whether or not i have this hernia).  

[greenlydia]

I'd say it's fairly certain you don't have a hernia, especially after the ultrasound exam, but even if you did, it is NOT a life threatening "condition!" Why are you getting so anxious over this? Did the doctors tell you to stop doing the activities you enjoy? Or is it your anxiety? You do know that smoking weed will only increase your anxiety, so my advice is to stop smoking it. At least until your get your head on straight again. And that may mean getting into some therapy to figure out why you suddenly have all this anxiety. It's coming from somewhere and until you figure THAT out, it's not going to just magically go away.
Get back into your soccer and yor workouts and pass on the pot.................see how you feel. I think you'll get your answer. And if you are not able to "just say no" at this party you're going to, then don't go! You must be young, otherwise you'd know that sometimes we don't always get what we want and we sometimes have to "sacrifice" a good time to take care of ourselves. But it's your choice.
You need to believe the four doctors who said it was nothing to worry about and the ultrasound proof that it's not even there. Get some help for your anxiety before it takes over.
Peace
Greenlydia