I am really getting tired!!! please help!!!

Here goes.  In Feb 2009 went for a friends bachelor and Fingered and kissed a dancer. From that day onwards anxiety set in maybe due to guilt(I am married). Was scared that I got HIV from this encounter so in May 2009 got tested -negative relieved. Everything was fine suddenly in the news paper I read about harmful effects of cell phone radiation and this I believe triggered an anxiety attack, what If my childres (aged 2.5 and 10months) get affected. THis was March 2010 and for no reasons thoughts came in to my mind what if the results of my previous HIV test is not trust worthy, what if the path lab goofed up my results??.

so got myself tested again in April 2010-tested negative-relieved again! but thought maybe the needle was re-used for the blood test and might have infected me.So again June 2010 got tested-negative! again the same feeling of re-used needle inspite of the pack being opened in front of me!can you believe it!!

Thus Jan 2011 got tested for HIV-negative. This time I held the needle packet in my hands but still an uneasy feeling cropped of what if I am infected???So I got tested again in May 2011 and now in August 2011. The last phlebotomy the phlebotomist even showed me the needle pack and opened and then discared the needle infront of me.

Whenever I try to recollect the next day or after a weeks time the scene to re-confirm my negative status belief the recollected scene seems blur and I am  confused whether did he open a new sealed packet in front of me or not ??. THis has happened in previous procedures as well.

Why do I keep bringing and running the scenes in my head after every blood draw and then doubt whether the phebotomist did infact infect me! after some times its no more about HIV but just repeating the scene like a broken record and I just cant stop that!!!

what to do doctor I am going crazy I have beautiful wife and two loving kids and I really want to enjoy my life!!!

Please help from
DEPRESSED IN MUMBAI LAD