I belive this is OCD

been attracted to woman all my life and always had crushes on girls. When a would get the butterflies being next to a hot girl never had any problems or doubts about my sexuality.I Turned to lesbian and soft core and porn to jerk off to .I was addicted to it at one point . But about a month ago it came out of no were. I couldn't stop doubting my sexuality and think I was gay. It felt like I was in the closet when I knew i was straight. I cant get thought out of my head. How could I be gay I jack off to girls all the time ever since Ive had this thing Ive been jerking off 4 times a day and never looked at a dude in a sexual way. Every time I would think of a girl would get this negative anxious feeling. I could still masturbate to woman but it was difficult with all the anxiety. I looked at a nude pic of a dude to see if I was bi and **** but I really wasn't to in to it.It seemed kinda gross and awkward and want to look away. But the negative anxious thoughts wouldn't go away. My doctor told me its a phase alot of teenagers 15 have. Ever since Ive had this thing ive been very grumpy and depress all the time I cant relax and be happy. When im at school is the only time I can get this out of my mind. But when i get home and have nothing to do it comes back. I dont care if im bi I just want this to go away but it wont. I think this is HOCD I looked it up and I match all the symptoms. I dont feel any urge for guys I think this is pure anxiaty. I get really anxious every time I here the word gay.In my life Ive been a hypcondriact, sufferd social phobia and had alot of narcissism. So im not supprised if I have OCD, Im attraced to woman so I dont know why I cant say im straight shake this thought and get on with my life. I dont why im so anxious when I think of woman. never had that problem before. I think it was phase at first but i think turned to OCD. I think its to obbsesive to be a regular phase. Even I was bi I dont think its normal to obbsese about it so much that the stress make me want to puke. I really dont feel any sexual attraction to men always had a strong sexual attraction to woman but it just feels being straight is not an option I have to be gay cause its the only way to calm the anxiety and stress. I looked at other fourms ,gay fourms  OCD fourms, yahoo answers, They will aways tell me im bi queerius or bisexual and my true sexual true oritation is not confirmed at 15 and i will most likly become gay or bi and that will push my anxiety and stress to the point were im almost sucidal. But when people told me it is phase they gone through It felt so great and i felt like I could beat this. please tell me if this is OCD.

[M4Y0U]

Hello there,

First of all i think it is too soon to say you have OCD. You might be passing through a period where it is normal to have questions about yourself and especially with sexuality.

I don't think you are gay or bi. I think you are just afraid of becoming gay or bi because of what people at school or your friends say about gay people. It is affecting you to the point you are having anxiety from it and it is constantly running in your mind to the point you think you have OCD.

You just need to confirm yourself as not gay and healthy young guy. You might need some talk therapy to help you do so. Maybe try to work on your self-esteem. Do physical activity, eat a better diet.

Best regards,
M4

[hmf099]

I'm bi, and I knew I was bi when I was very young like 10.you aren't bi. If you were bi or gay u woulda felt different a while ago.But part of what's gonna make u feel better is telling urself its ok to be gay.after u convince urself of this u will feel better. Once your mind relaxes u can be more rational and see u are straight.these obsessive fears can come up in other things besides sexuallity so u should really seek counseling. Talk to an adult u feel comfortable with they will be able to help. And it is too soon to diagnose ocd.