Hi Charlotte. Wow, ready your post and everyone else really helps me out as well. I have been dying for six months myself. I talk to my friend about it and she gives me a great laugh because she's like Rayn, girl you have been dying since January. The sound of her saying that makes me laugh at the time but it truly is not funny when going through the motions. I am constantly going to the ER. For example, I went last night. For about two days I have had pressure in my back, chest, neck, throat, water brash, sour taste in my mouth, abdominal pain, and the feeling like I am choking on my saliva. I ran out of work about 45 minutes before the end of my shift because I could not take the discomfort any longer. I went to the ER and when I got there they put me on a heart monitor for a while, ECG, chest x-rays were done. Dr. came in and said everything looks fine that I have some esophagus problems going on. Of course, I don't want to believe it. I think that there is some undetected disease that is killing me and the doctors are all in on it. I don't know why I even go to the dr because I have a difficult time believing what they tell me. I always think that I am a part of a study and they assure me that everything will be ok so that I don't panic and when I die they are going to test may organs and everything to find a cure for this "undetected disease". It is a horrible way to live and I always think I am going to die any minute. I am afraid to leave my house because I think I am going to fall out somewhere and not be found.
Will this ever stop?