I dont know what to do

Im a 26yr old male who is scared of  responsibility But i pay rent and phone and truck payments.My whole life i was living with my parents or with someone where I didn't have all the responsibility of the bills.Like now I live with my girlfriend and her mom I pay to live here but i get scared to think of been on my own with my girlfriend I also get scared of working I have a good job sometimes i get scared to go but once im there i feel fine but when the end of the day comes the fear comes back so i self medicate i to alter the mood in my brain when i start to panic it dont happen all the time but when it does happen i freak out and hurt the ones around me with my emotions especially my girlfriend. What can i do to feel like i can last in the real world?

[ILADVOCATE]

If the stress in your life has built up that much it would be best to find coping solutions. You could go to a talk therapist or cognitive behavioral therapist. Support groups are good as well. If you are self medicating something that you need treatment for then it would be best to speak to a psychiatrist. It depends how much help you need but real world support is out there.

[Julie359]

Can i ask what do u self-medicate with?  Cause if it's something like pot/weed this can make the situation worse..... cause u paranoia and make the feelings of panic worse.  

I would strongly recommend going to ur doc and chatting to him about how ur feeling and ask to be referred to a therapist and or some safer options for medication.