I dont understand what is/was happening

Hello
I am sorry if my post will seem a little confusing. I feel very confused.
I just need to know whether anyone else experienced things like this and whether that is 'normal'
To cut a long story short, I have always believed that the pictures in my head were from a film I once watched or I just made them up - my imagination. Those pictures are very disturbing and when I talk about them to my therapist I start to shake. Yet I dont believe that they are real! I dont believe that they really happend.
The pictures in my head are all about me and other child[ren] being abused.
I have no memories up to the age of 12 and even after that I hardly have any memories at all. I just wondered whether I made all this up because I was bored as a child or just wanted attention?
Im sorry if this is a stupid post. It is just that things get more and more confusing for me.

Thank you for reading
M

[vega1318]

it is good that you're talking to your therapist about these issues.   it is possible that some of these images are glimpses of your childhood that you do not want to retrieve yet completely.  you should let your therapist work with you on that.   hypnotherapy may be very useful if you trust your therapist and are ready to do it.
embrace whatever is happenning to you and don't let it interfere with your daily activities until you're fully able to face the images with somebody's help.