Hello.I'm 23 yrs old and I've been suffering from anxiety panick attack disorder for years.I've tried a lot of meds but nothing helped me,just "NOTHING".My fear is about "losing my mind".I dont feel quite even for a minute.I'm constant worrying about stupid things like "what if I kill someone or hurt someone,what if I do incest,what if I start halucionating or hearing voices,what if...,what if...".I hate myself for thinking this way and I would never do it.I have agoraphobia too.
Another thing is that I really feel weird.I cant look myself in the mirror because I seem so unknown and that terryfies me.My parents and brothers look so unfamiliar to me.If they want to talk to me or hug me I just avoid them and get angry:'( I feel so guilty.
I just want to die and I know I'm gonna suicide for sure,I feel so hopeless :'( I hate my self,I hate this world.I feel I don't belong here :'"""""""(