BACKGROUND:
I have had nervous ticks my entire life. A few years ago I started to rub my scalp to the point where hair would fall out. Since then, my head has been riddled with round bald spots. The thing is, I am unaware of when I start rubbing my scalp. I believe that I am subconsciously satisfied by the prickly/ sharp feeling of the hair on my finger tips. I immediately notice the bald spots when there is an inconsistency in the "prickly/ sharp feeling", so I stop touching my head. This is very important because I KNOW FOR A FACT that I AM NOT rubbing the bald spots to the point where they keep expanding.
Before this year, I would find a spot and stop touching that area all together. Eventually the hair would grow back and all was good... Until now:
I had found a bald spot about a cm in diameter two months ago. When I am touching my head, I immediately notice when my fingers brush past this spot, so I KNOW I'M NOT RUBBING IT (Remember: The slightest inconsistency will immediately draw my attention and make me aware of the fact that i'm touching my head, so i'll stop right away).
THE PROBLEM:
The spot that was 1 cm two months ago is now almost 8 cm!!! I have no idea why it is expanding, I have never had a spot this large in my life! The spot is totally bare with a ring of stubble. For a while I thought this stubble was new growth, but with time I realized that it is breakage that will eventually fall out. It is still expanding and I have no idea what to do. I have seen 4 doctors and they all think that I am rubbing it without knowing. I try to explain how I know that this is not the case, but they have all disregarded it. I don't know what to do anymore.
I know I rub my scalp because I am stressed, but the fact that the hair is now falling out on its own scares the daylights out of me.
Could you please share your thoughts/ opinions? I need as much input as I can get! Thank you.
Also, I do not take any medication and i'm in my early 20s