I think i might be going crazy ! :(

I really think all of this is due to anxiety but i cant get it outta my head i feel like its making me loose my mind since i have been told over and over again i had no risk.I have been the hiv forum more than my share have talked to hotlines more than my share.What can i do to get this outta my mind i took a test at 5 1/2-6 weeks and it was negative. What can i do to calm these ridiculous fears. Anything on my own cuz i can afford to go to the doctor.I know kissing does not transmit hiv because of the saliva, however i was wandering given i had a cut on my lip which was bleeding just a bit before i was involved in a deep French kiss. I have gums which bleed sometimes when brushing, and they inflame sometimes. I had some root canals done many years ago and they went bad have been for a long time now one one on each side in now there like gaping holes but i never really noticed em to bleed unless i brush. I didnt know the hiv status of the other person nor did i know there dental hygene.(assuming that person did have hiv) and there was a little blood present. Didnt notice any but i was wandering would there of had to of been alot of blood from the other person, for it to transmit hiv into me either through my cut lip or those root canals gone bad?

[Raine9]

My only advice to you is to do whatever you can to rule out HIV exposure. Basically, all you can really do is get an HIV test every 6 months or so.  I don't know talk to someone.  There are free clinics that will do free HIV testing.    

After that don't think about it anymore and try to think postively.  I made the mistake of worrying too much about getting cancer and now I think I've developed what's known as generalized anxiety disorder.  You don't want to go down that path, trust me. Good luck to you!

[for_the_ignorant_plz]

You said your thoughts of hiv were from a kiss also did it involve a cut  that was possibly bleeding with a unknown hiv status person as well who u didnt know if they were bleeding? Im glad u responded and im just trying to feel better i call hotlines sometimes i get good news and sometimes i get bad news....and of course its the bad that freaks me good news makes me feel better but just for a little and then im back on medhelp for more reassurance and even then it does not always help. I do meditation alot at night and it does at least help me to get to sleep even tho in dreams i have nightmares.Also do u really think that a 40 day ora quick test is a really good sign.

[suzi-q]

It sounds like you are totally fine...Your risk of contacting HIV is slim to none.  Plus, the tests are proving that.  I had that terrible irrational fear once also...like you, I didn't think it was from sex...it was from a kiss.  Of course it was TOTALLY ILLOGICAL THINKING!!!  That was the beginning of my anxiety disorder that I still struggle with today (Over ten years ago!).  

Anxiety tends to grab onto any fear and make it totally  irrational.  Please know that you are healthy and fine and work on the anxiety and "awfulizing" the situation.  Stop the anxiety before it gets out of control.

[suzi-q]

My HIV scare was from kissing also...I have a history of canker sores and when this anxiety hit I tried to remember if I ever kissed a guy while I had a canker sore!  I worried myself sick...very sick...couldn't even go to work because the panic was so terrible!!!  So I went to my GYNO and she gave me an HIV test that I had to wait a week for results...well, just shoot me!  I was a disaster area!  I couldn't go to work the day I was getting the results because of panic!!!  Needless to say, I was negative.  THE ANXIETY THAT I FELT WAS DEFINITELY ABNORMAL AND IRRATIONAL!  JUST LIKE YOURS!!!  I then fixated on brain tumors, MS, Lupus...and then I said, enough is enough and got on medication!!!!  I KNOW THAT THE FEAR THAT YOU ARE FEELING IS SO REAL!!!  I wish you could see it from the outside, but right now you are so lost in this anxiety, that you can't.  I KNOW THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE HIV AND A NEGATIVE TEST AFTER 40 DAYS IS GREAT NEWS!  I am sure that it is effective after that time because it wouldn't be on the market then!  I would suggest, however, doing it again or going to your doctor for a blood test...JUST TO EASE YOUR MIND!  trust me you are fine!!!