I have been reading different books and doing relaxation techniques. This particular office does not have a general therapist, I don't think. I am still looking for one.
I see you're still fighting the good fight, eh buddy?! Good for you!
It's hard to say what the outcome will be with the meds, of course you know it's largely trial and error, and unfortunately if a med worked for us once, it doesn't always mean it will work again, although it may. It's just one of those things you have to assess in each seperate situation.
There are a lot of things you could do on your own to start working on the anxiety and the agoraphobia. What are you doing? Have you been setting any goals and pushing yourself outside of your comfort zone at all? TRULY, that is the most effective way in undoing the agoraphobia. You have to send messages to your brain that there is nothing to fear. It doesn't happen overnight, but the more you get out and the more you do, the more your mind will realize there IS nothing to fear. Continuing to avoid places and things sends the opposite message, that there IS someting to fear.
Are you in therapy? That's a HUGE necessity. I recall you were having trouble getting to your therapy appts. Can you find a therapist closer to home? Have you read any self help books about anxiety/panic? Tried any relaxation techniques? Journalling? There are SO many things a person can do...the therapy appts and meds are only tools, the REAL work happens when a person takes the control back and starts changing that mindset.
Try not to overthink the meds...just roll with it and of course, try to be patient as it will take a little while before you will know if they are going to help with the symptoms.
You've been through so many life changing, very traumatic events, no doubt those were big triggers for you, but at THIS point, the anxiety remains because it's what you know. THAT'S what has to change.
Best to you, keep us updated on how you're feeling okay?
Aaawww... you sound SO much like me with the life and med probs, I wanna give you a hug! It can take years to find the right med mix, which is very frustrating. I still haven't found the right one and I am working with my doctor. Seems like one thing will work for awhile, then something in my brain chem will change and we have to start all over again. Just try whatever it is your doc says. If it doesnt work, try again. Thing is this: do not give up trying, ever! You have a right to a happy life, so do whatever it takes to get so you can enjoy your life.